So Much

Too many times
Held by you
Never enough

Too many times
Kissed by you
Hardly enough

Too many times
Loved sexually by you
Not really enough

Too many times
Called by you
Maybe enough

Too many times
Controlled by you
Enough is enough

Too many times
I tried to free myself
Only to remain stuck

Too many times
I believed in myself
Only to be down on my luck

Too many times
I thought about not needing you
Only to not know how much

Too many times
Saddened because you chose another
Only to continue to show up

Too many times
I thought of having your child
Only to with you watch her grow up

Too many times
My tears have fallen for you
Only to have them now slow up

Too many times
Your approach even to this day
Only leaves me confused with what I want

Too many times
Your name is called out in my mind
Only to have to tell myself to shut up

Too many times
My life will be on hold
Because of you and how you've ruined it

So Much