Dreaming of a moment
A moment of clarity
One of prosperity
And one of longevity
To only, find myself
By myself
Looking for chemistry
That contains energy
Sharing my entity
Because it is a remedy
To keep me breathing steadily
As I approach the world readily
Decisions - Decisions
With deciding to remember me
Where I'm left alone thinking about
How December should be
Should I beg or pray just to be seen,
As I express with my heart
Only for another to not
Know what I mean?
My life in a corner, green
As I am cheated daily
By those with low self esteem
Sometimes I wish that person were me
So I can wake up selfishly
Without a care in the world
About what others mean to me
At the same time acting devilishly
You see, I strive to counter Divinity
Beyond self stimulation
And how I bring it to me
Because righteously it means to me
More than one can offer me
After offering it to another
Not allowing it to make a softer me
Because for real I am the boss of me
Each day employing myself
To enjoy myself
The way I work, the way I flirt
The commitment to maintain my health
Why do I really need anybody else?
Why do I need another’s somebody's else?
When I cannot replace that somebody's wealth
As I am only shared a little about somebody else
Which is disturbing
When looking at my thoughts
That this other has brought
Which leaves me distraught
While thinking about the cost
An hour long deep conversation $10
Affection on occasion $380
An everyday smile Priceless
To give to another I cannot digest
To still see your previous lover I cannot forget
Where what I express
is not confidently regressed
Once again, feelings oppressed
That begins when I am left to guess
about why I am here looking a mess
While at the same time remaining free from stress
Faithfully believing that I am only here to endure
In addition, experience pain that I have left before
Testing my every limb and thoughts so pure
Even as I am myself
Sitting Here Being Secure
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