To many times my strength has been ridden
To many times my lifeline has been hidden
As I'm still looking for that young lady
Of herself sexually to me she hasn't given
So I can't relax until I get
that chance to symbolize her back
making her grab her vagina
like she was having a G-spot attack
Enough said now knowing
you will get back to me
if you like em
Rough, Long and Strong
A man is He that understands his mistakes, and admits to a change needed in his life, resulting in everlasting acceptance. - AHKMEL PHAROD. This Blog will serve as an Emotional Journal, it will capture my life as an entity articulately, artistically, soulfully, rhythmically and last but not least Poetically. I welcome you to relate, relax and receive me as open as you possibly can.
The Rebirth of Fashion
When fashion takes a break it sits down and takes a picture.
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Righteous Justice
Taking pride and pleasure
in these thoughts I've crafted
just for your sights beyond
sometimes you don't even
have to respond
as in the attention you've already shown
with you I belong
I am just being who I am
which to figure me out
it wont take long
away I am stored like something frozen
just waiting to be thawed out
for my heart
to shout out loud
this is what love
is suppose to be about
through each expression
I am addressing a new dimension
like the worlds
different complexions
sometimes blue - sometimes gray
sometimes I'm even red in the face
blushing when I know
that I made some ones day,
like yours right now I can see your smile
when you click onto your inbox
and see my note resulting in you
scrolling down and down,
happy that we've met placing our feet firmly
on the ground to establish trust before lust
to me your are like Chrome
I will never let rust
I'd rather let my heart bust
just for you to witness
me like a breath a fresh air
that's stronger than any gust of wind
I'm not here to manipulate you
I'm here to bring you
and your mind, body and soul
Righteous Justice
in these thoughts I've crafted
just for your sights beyond
sometimes you don't even
have to respond
as in the attention you've already shown
with you I belong
I am just being who I am
which to figure me out
it wont take long
away I am stored like something frozen
just waiting to be thawed out
for my heart
to shout out loud
this is what love
is suppose to be about
through each expression
I am addressing a new dimension
like the worlds
different complexions
sometimes blue - sometimes gray
sometimes I'm even red in the face
blushing when I know
that I made some ones day,
like yours right now I can see your smile
when you click onto your inbox
and see my note resulting in you
scrolling down and down,
happy that we've met placing our feet firmly
on the ground to establish trust before lust
to me your are like Chrome
I will never let rust
I'd rather let my heart bust
just for you to witness
me like a breath a fresh air
that's stronger than any gust of wind
I'm not here to manipulate you
I'm here to bring you
and your mind, body and soul
Righteous Justice
Righteous Intervention
Anymore than the first smile received
will tend to be followed
by the deceit,
as I continue to socialize with women
that in themselves don't believe,
I want to be accepted
not rejected,
automatic reactions far from tragic
mind stretches far pass the elastic
attitudes of the uncertain,
now the smile is used
to perform magic,
I like to express myself to those
that don't expect it
no room to be neglected
my space is romantically,
suppose to be for women
and only women of the 21 Century
the donator of verbal orgasmic organisms
to lost souls walking blind pass me making
all the wrong decisions
I'm not going to feel sorry anymore,
I will not Love for Self
I have explored
keeping me from behind closed doors,
no locks no handles, carousel affection
skyscraper protection my heart can only be
my heart as it lies inside of me
leaving me to mention
that I know the difference
between retention and reception,
stop looking pass subjects with lessons
exercise using all of your aggression
toward the analyzation of
Righteous Intervention
will tend to be followed
by the deceit,
as I continue to socialize with women
that in themselves don't believe,
I want to be accepted
not rejected,
automatic reactions far from tragic
mind stretches far pass the elastic
attitudes of the uncertain,
now the smile is used
to perform magic,
I like to express myself to those
that don't expect it
no room to be neglected
my space is romantically,
suppose to be for women
and only women of the 21 Century
the donator of verbal orgasmic organisms
to lost souls walking blind pass me making
all the wrong decisions
I'm not going to feel sorry anymore,
I will not Love for Self
I have explored
keeping me from behind closed doors,
no locks no handles, carousel affection
skyscraper protection my heart can only be
my heart as it lies inside of me
leaving me to mention
that I know the difference
between retention and reception,
stop looking pass subjects with lessons
exercise using all of your aggression
toward the analyzation of
Righteous Intervention
Right on Time (w)
It didn't take me long
To think about this
Real love - Real music
being composed right before
the eyes of those
who have the time to enjoy me
which equals my everything
whether rain, sleet, snow or shine
I will never fall short
of completing a line of poetry
Right on Time
To think about this
Real love - Real music
being composed right before
the eyes of those
who have the time to enjoy me
which equals my everything
whether rain, sleet, snow or shine
I will never fall short
of completing a line of poetry
Right on Time
Right Now
Get well my friend
Get well for me
I would like to see you well again
I would like to dance
that dance with you
at the same time expressing
that my love for you is not pretend
not calling all due to me being afraid,
afraid of next to your mind
I will not be able to stay
so I drift, drift to the heavens
for an answer looking to God for advice
on how not to be just a romancer
but a gentleman living only
to respect a beautiful woman
such as yourself
praying now at this time
for you to achieve good health
praying for you at this time
for you to smile at me
Right now for me continuously
you have a very beautiful smile
a smile that when you are sick
will heel you quick
a power that will overcome any illness
this poem I write for you to feel it
soothing to your eyes for your mind
to prescribe never to run as you already
know where to find me if I hide
The good woman in you
is what I strive to keep alive
holding your hand when I'm with you
to show that I want to along
with you exist as one for you,
your eyes looking into mine
I remember, leaving me to express
my feelings to you as I am missing you
Right Now
Get well for me
I would like to see you well again
I would like to dance
that dance with you
at the same time expressing
that my love for you is not pretend
not calling all due to me being afraid,
afraid of next to your mind
I will not be able to stay
so I drift, drift to the heavens
for an answer looking to God for advice
on how not to be just a romancer
but a gentleman living only
to respect a beautiful woman
such as yourself
praying now at this time
for you to achieve good health
praying for you at this time
for you to smile at me
Right now for me continuously
you have a very beautiful smile
a smile that when you are sick
will heel you quick
a power that will overcome any illness
this poem I write for you to feel it
soothing to your eyes for your mind
to prescribe never to run as you already
know where to find me if I hide
The good woman in you
is what I strive to keep alive
holding your hand when I'm with you
to show that I want to along
with you exist as one for you,
your eyes looking into mine
I remember, leaving me to express
my feelings to you as I am missing you
Right Now
Right Here
So my truth is now
Why I returned
as that sharp feeling
in my side for 17 hours
I sat still patiently waiting
to see if the pain
would go away
I couldn't eat
I couldn't sleep
I couldn't eat
So I prayed and GOD
brought the sun
I'm eased I'm free
He made a way
and it's because of him
I'm alive looking to stay
Right Here
Why I returned
as that sharp feeling
in my side for 17 hours
I sat still patiently waiting
to see if the pain
would go away
I couldn't eat
I couldn't sleep
I couldn't eat
So I prayed and GOD
brought the sun
I'm eased I'm free
He made a way
and it's because of him
I'm alive looking to stay
Right Here
Right From the Start
As the light shines on my dreams
I wake up to add a thought of walking
hand and hand with you side by side,
stride by stride remaining right next to you,
complete is how I want to feel,
therefore I must thank you...
take a moment to praise yourself
just a moment,
for I am now in Love
with just how you are,
So beautiful, I am in love with your
attention in love with your questions,
in love with the smiles
I will continue to receive from you,
blessed we are, shooting stars
aiming to catch each others hearts
Right From the Start
I wake up to add a thought of walking
hand and hand with you side by side,
stride by stride remaining right next to you,
complete is how I want to feel,
therefore I must thank you...
take a moment to praise yourself
just a moment,
for I am now in Love
with just how you are,
So beautiful, I am in love with your
attention in love with your questions,
in love with the smiles
I will continue to receive from you,
blessed we are, shooting stars
aiming to catch each others hearts
Right From the Start
Responsible
Let me ask you this
Have you every met a man
with no hue
no height and no clue
about where he belongs
if it's not next to you?
A man with love
A man with all of Gods tools,
equipped like a carpenter
or a doctor when it comes
to coming to the rescue,
A man that knows what plate
to step up to,
bat in hand to hit home runs
for a family that he looks
to have soon with a woman similar to you
I want to understand
my purpose for looking forward in
getting to know you,
lonely but not alone
because I have Jesus
to keep me company
when things I want don't
fall though
like cracks in the road
I've before fell through
but still I'm here
chin up walking tall
because it's the man in me
that keeps me
Responsible
Have you every met a man
with no hue
no height and no clue
about where he belongs
if it's not next to you?
A man with love
A man with all of Gods tools,
equipped like a carpenter
or a doctor when it comes
to coming to the rescue,
A man that knows what plate
to step up to,
bat in hand to hit home runs
for a family that he looks
to have soon with a woman similar to you
I want to understand
my purpose for looking forward in
getting to know you,
lonely but not alone
because I have Jesus
to keep me company
when things I want don't
fall though
like cracks in the road
I've before fell through
but still I'm here
chin up walking tall
because it's the man in me
that keeps me
Responsible
Reshaping It
Somewhere on a planet
different than this,
a body of water evaporated
as the sun approached it
from the new east
Hemisphere captivated
Atmosphere dually compensated
Mist seen from space the outer
another milky way now formed,
where afterwards
Cosmos and Haley hated it,
the fact that there is a moon
surrounded by stars "galactically"
Reshaping It
different than this,
a body of water evaporated
as the sun approached it
from the new east
Hemisphere captivated
Atmosphere dually compensated
Mist seen from space the outer
another milky way now formed,
where afterwards
Cosmos and Haley hated it,
the fact that there is a moon
surrounded by stars "galactically"
Reshaping It
Remembering Your Touch
Magic can't be described whole and full
the way my last word
as the air escapes my lungs-remarkable
200 things said multiplied by 20
unsaid unrehearsed my first choice was you
never before has my soul felt pure
dreaming about the contact of you
experiencing the zodiac in you
proud to have finally been able to see you
with my own eyes tears filled with surprise
you can be the lover in me
without being by my side
in such I've learned
better yet experienced the kiss
the sensual complexion I still fantasize
about the way my lips glided
between the inside of your thighs
powerful with more strength that I had ever
My Love, please don't forget the way
I planned on visiting you
in the coldest weather
keeping you warm was
the Brooklyn Swarm
respecting and protecting
you from your invisible harm
taking time out to set aside the lust
too busy focusing on
gaining your trust
blessing you like Jesus Christ
crucifying the way I sit here
writing this poem at the same time
Remembering Your Touch
the way my last word
as the air escapes my lungs-remarkable
200 things said multiplied by 20
unsaid unrehearsed my first choice was you
never before has my soul felt pure
dreaming about the contact of you
experiencing the zodiac in you
proud to have finally been able to see you
with my own eyes tears filled with surprise
you can be the lover in me
without being by my side
in such I've learned
better yet experienced the kiss
the sensual complexion I still fantasize
about the way my lips glided
between the inside of your thighs
powerful with more strength that I had ever
My Love, please don't forget the way
I planned on visiting you
in the coldest weather
keeping you warm was
the Brooklyn Swarm
respecting and protecting
you from your invisible harm
taking time out to set aside the lust
too busy focusing on
gaining your trust
blessing you like Jesus Christ
crucifying the way I sit here
writing this poem at the same time
Remembering Your Touch
Remain With Me
Once again on the Ferris wheel
Of life provided by my wife
Sharing scriptures about our destiny,
Allowing our faith - to be our remedy,
To a new day as I stay
Thanking the lord for the Angel
He has sent to me,
Where through it all I still fall
Holding on to our many memories,
And sometimes I think that this
Is not only meant to be
But has to be,
Like the turning of a new century
Where my focus is to maintain
My confidence through maturity,
Keeping my wife sane enough
For her to stay with me
as she will forever
Remain With Me
Of life provided by my wife
Sharing scriptures about our destiny,
Allowing our faith - to be our remedy,
To a new day as I stay
Thanking the lord for the Angel
He has sent to me,
Where through it all I still fall
Holding on to our many memories,
And sometimes I think that this
Is not only meant to be
But has to be,
Like the turning of a new century
Where my focus is to maintain
My confidence through maturity,
Keeping my wife sane enough
For her to stay with me
as she will forever
Remain With Me
Released By Sight (w)
I do indeed understand
The benefits of what is or would be
Required to start my life again
The journey has been
Fruitful and educational
By far,
I'm pleased with the levels
Of succession which secures my
Universal bounty on this earth
My wisdom of knowledge obtained
Through efforts put forth
As I use my brain as my force
Indestructible my being as a Human
Enlightens those off course
Looking to be guided by the light
Held by might
Released By Sight
The benefits of what is or would be
Required to start my life again
The journey has been
Fruitful and educational
By far,
I'm pleased with the levels
Of succession which secures my
Universal bounty on this earth
My wisdom of knowledge obtained
Through efforts put forth
As I use my brain as my force
Indestructible my being as a Human
Enlightens those off course
Looking to be guided by the light
Held by might
Released By Sight
Relationship Fears
Laughing about running no where
Feeling unconditionally shared
Like extended strands of hair
Third eye 20/10 seeing better than clear
Runner up awards I don't want, don't need
I deserve to be cared for
by women everywhere
My belief, my struggle
just to be loved sincere
No more - longer I think I can bear
Destined to find my love because I feel
My love is near dreams entering my years
After I leaped 36 upon my face the shine
From permanent tears so many still stare
And I wonder if they can actually see
What others can't hear
Like my cries and
Relationship Fears
Feeling unconditionally shared
Like extended strands of hair
Third eye 20/10 seeing better than clear
Runner up awards I don't want, don't need
I deserve to be cared for
by women everywhere
My belief, my struggle
just to be loved sincere
No more - longer I think I can bear
Destined to find my love because I feel
My love is near dreams entering my years
After I leaped 36 upon my face the shine
From permanent tears so many still stare
And I wonder if they can actually see
What others can't hear
Like my cries and
Relationship Fears
Please Don't Wake Me
Now may I lay Ahkmel to rest,
with thoughts of You
listening to my heart beat for you
inside of my chest,
This is sort of like Blind Ambition,
expressing myself emotionally,
while still being in my condition,
for I have been
understanding to what you are demanding
from me through telepathy,
At any point in time you don't understand,
where I may be coming from,
just realize that your attention alone
is worth more than any presidential ransom,
I am so vulnerable to you
Right now because of your radiance,
as you are interested in
My annual external placement,
I welcome you into my dreams
Where only the righteous succeed,
whether they are alone,
or With me,
there are no boundaries,
for my love is the conversation
That you will desire continuously,
so once again to you I will
Surrender 100 or more words of poetry,
longing to hear your response
but before you do tonight
Please Don't Wake Me
with thoughts of You
listening to my heart beat for you
inside of my chest,
This is sort of like Blind Ambition,
expressing myself emotionally,
while still being in my condition,
for I have been
understanding to what you are demanding
from me through telepathy,
At any point in time you don't understand,
where I may be coming from,
just realize that your attention alone
is worth more than any presidential ransom,
I am so vulnerable to you
Right now because of your radiance,
as you are interested in
My annual external placement,
I welcome you into my dreams
Where only the righteous succeed,
whether they are alone,
or With me,
there are no boundaries,
for my love is the conversation
That you will desire continuously,
so once again to you I will
Surrender 100 or more words of poetry,
longing to hear your response
but before you do tonight
Please Don't Wake Me
Redundant Relations
When the morning is near
do we wake,
or are we still fast asleep
programmed to speak,
on purpose,
some of those that
are nervous to speak
their minds while others
speak fast in their sleep
whispering their lives
far behind
from the inside
for the world to hear
impossible to do when
the world is dumb, deaf and blind,
independently creating education
for the proper elevation
while keeping the originals originating
Redundant Relations
do we wake,
or are we still fast asleep
programmed to speak,
on purpose,
some of those that
are nervous to speak
their minds while others
speak fast in their sleep
whispering their lives
far behind
from the inside
for the world to hear
impossible to do when
the world is dumb, deaf and blind,
independently creating education
for the proper elevation
while keeping the originals originating
Redundant Relations
Ready to Build
Even when I look now
Odd is not how I feel
Emotions distracted sometimes
By your appeal
Guided by the memories
That are oh, so real
Like seeing you for the first time
Again after a year
Leaping higher than ever
Can be noticed by those
Paying close attention to my heels
As I soar, because I'm high on you
Where I rely on you
to understand that,
with God I've made a deal,
Excelling with you confidently
through My spirit because
at this time I'm
Ready to Build
Odd is not how I feel
Emotions distracted sometimes
By your appeal
Guided by the memories
That are oh, so real
Like seeing you for the first time
Again after a year
Leaping higher than ever
Can be noticed by those
Paying close attention to my heels
As I soar, because I'm high on you
Where I rely on you
to understand that,
with God I've made a deal,
Excelling with you confidently
through My spirit because
at this time I'm
Ready to Build
Pick a Date Up
Bashing - from the waist up
I'm checking out
The reason not to shake up
My beliefs and why the self-conscious
needs to wear make up
Not here to relate or chase up
But bash those that cake up
Layer upon layer
Who are you now?
I'm just trying to get a little closer
than your mirror
Hoping that I don't take up
To much of your space up
While I'm chilling
Analyzing how now not to fake up
A compliment Like OOOOOHHHH!
You look like
Excuse me you are about to
Pick a Date Up
I'm checking out
The reason not to shake up
My beliefs and why the self-conscious
needs to wear make up
Not here to relate or chase up
But bash those that cake up
Layer upon layer
Who are you now?
I'm just trying to get a little closer
than your mirror
Hoping that I don't take up
To much of your space up
While I'm chilling
Analyzing how now not to fake up
A compliment Like OOOOOHHHH!
You look like
Excuse me you are about to
Pick a Date Up
Permanently
To Cassandra David
I know I belong here
right next to you
everyday all day
I don't want to miss a thing
when it comes to the way
you receive me
My Love I am here to expose my feelings
which I hope to you are appealing
enough to not go astray
wishing for you to believe in me
as I do you
with more than an escape
to your hiding place
needing me and keeping me
closer than the smile
on your face
I believe I've attached
Permanently
I know I belong here
right next to you
everyday all day
I don't want to miss a thing
when it comes to the way
you receive me
My Love I am here to expose my feelings
which I hope to you are appealing
enough to not go astray
wishing for you to believe in me
as I do you
with more than an escape
to your hiding place
needing me and keeping me
closer than the smile
on your face
I believe I've attached
Permanently
Permanent Reasons
Where love is not the question
to how I feel when I write a poem for you,
you are the builder
of my heart and confidence
so keep a steady head
and understand each word
as each word expressed is what is meant,
you welcomed me into your internal core,
introducing me to your
mind and soul like never before
which made me feel so pure,
thank you for the unconditional love
that you have shown me,
for I appreciate you enough
to never consider leaving,
where as now
never to leave you lonely are my
Permanent Reasons
to how I feel when I write a poem for you,
you are the builder
of my heart and confidence
so keep a steady head
and understand each word
as each word expressed is what is meant,
you welcomed me into your internal core,
introducing me to your
mind and soul like never before
which made me feel so pure,
thank you for the unconditional love
that you have shown me,
for I appreciate you enough
to never consider leaving,
where as now
never to leave you lonely are my
Permanent Reasons
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Our Future - The Beginning (w)
Where in a day the level of tenderness
Is far more than likely to appear
before the world - unclear
Emotional differences are caught
Like a dandelion in thin air
Then wished upon with meaning - sincere
Steadily and readily, returning to my fears
to chase away tears and pain suffered
throughout all of these years
Then sent to me was you,
"My Dear" grateful and appreciative
to the things you share
You are in love and I am in love
loving what you are in love with
receiving you like my mother's prayers
Our world is secure our lives are once
again pure allowing destiny to become
interested in
Our Future - The Beginning
Is far more than likely to appear
before the world - unclear
Emotional differences are caught
Like a dandelion in thin air
Then wished upon with meaning - sincere
Steadily and readily, returning to my fears
to chase away tears and pain suffered
throughout all of these years
Then sent to me was you,
"My Dear" grateful and appreciative
to the things you share
You are in love and I am in love
loving what you are in love with
receiving you like my mother's prayers
Our world is secure our lives are once
again pure allowing destiny to become
interested in
Our Future - The Beginning
Our Existence
I sit waiting patiently
for you comfortably
because of you my smile shines,
I am happy . . .to have met you
as you are so beautiful to me,
I welcome you to stay
as you are now apart of my life,
my every day
Every morning
at the upper
right hand corner
I look, listen and prepare my heart
to feel your presence
as I am a man
you are getting to know,
while growing
I hope you can stay long enough
to hold my hand one day,
joining our innocence our spirits
and the fine line
that has welcomed
Our Existence
for you comfortably
because of you my smile shines,
I am happy . . .to have met you
as you are so beautiful to me,
I welcome you to stay
as you are now apart of my life,
my every day
Every morning
at the upper
right hand corner
I look, listen and prepare my heart
to feel your presence
as I am a man
you are getting to know,
while growing
I hope you can stay long enough
to hold my hand one day,
joining our innocence our spirits
and the fine line
that has welcomed
Our Existence
Only You
Can we go on that trip together?
Can I be that sunny warm weather?
Just say yes, never say never,
because for that I'm too clever.
Put your guard back up
and keep it there,
keep it where I can see it
and believe it,
Stories of the past remarkable
as I have a lot to be thankful for,
my lost Love is unstoppable
so be curious to what you require
versus what you need,
as my pleasure comes from inside
of my sometimes forbidden territory,
and for now let me accustom myself
upon your attitude about the pleasures
that I'm trying to bring to you and
Only You
One Second More
From the fountain existed the truth
The Silhouette - the proof
Hourglass - one minute
I caught - I'm finished
Sex on the mind, she did it
Excuse my presence
I just love being tempted
Eye candy Willy Wonka
She's sweet and gifted
The way the walk
Makes me think different
About hitting it
1 position 2 position 3 position 4
from the car, the shower
kitchen sink to the closet floor
a perfect fit lust lasting
Seeping through her pores
that I can't do without for
more than
One Second More
The Silhouette - the proof
Hourglass - one minute
I caught - I'm finished
Sex on the mind, she did it
Excuse my presence
I just love being tempted
Eye candy Willy Wonka
She's sweet and gifted
The way the walk
Makes me think different
About hitting it
1 position 2 position 3 position 4
from the car, the shower
kitchen sink to the closet floor
a perfect fit lust lasting
Seeping through her pores
that I can't do without for
more than
One Second More
One More Try
We thought that, No.. You thought that
it couldn't be done, well guess what
you got caught by my heart,
which had you once again flying,
and communicating is all I was trying
picking you up with each word
so you can fall again,
my friend you are and I still love you
What else is there for me to do?
Let me take you to the moon
like I'm suppose to,
let me run your bath water then scrub you
don't resist because now is not the time,
let me moisturize your body
while I have it on my mind,
let me find happiness serving you,
relax with me, cross the tracks with me
open up your spirit and let me in,
because I'm knocking, asking for
One More Try
it couldn't be done, well guess what
you got caught by my heart,
which had you once again flying,
and communicating is all I was trying
picking you up with each word
so you can fall again,
my friend you are and I still love you
What else is there for me to do?
Let me take you to the moon
like I'm suppose to,
let me run your bath water then scrub you
don't resist because now is not the time,
let me moisturize your body
while I have it on my mind,
let me find happiness serving you,
relax with me, cross the tracks with me
open up your spirit and let me in,
because I'm knocking, asking for
One More Try
On Your Necklace
What do we really mean
As for each other - One to another?
Sometimes for you simple I may make my puzzle
Until you start to judge, Why must you judge?
Judge mental - Your mentality
It didn't come first, so stand in front of
a crowd and show that you are universe
The life you, the strife you,
I have no reason not to be polite to you
I like you, you're Infinite
As I am your benefit from ALL-STATES
Insure me and I'll insure you
I'll sacrifice my love for myself
Just to explore you - Endless
No pain no worry, distress less
Only thing treacherous the patience
The attitude non-reckless as I will forever
be that charm you wear
On Your Necklace
As for each other - One to another?
Sometimes for you simple I may make my puzzle
Until you start to judge, Why must you judge?
Judge mental - Your mentality
It didn't come first, so stand in front of
a crowd and show that you are universe
The life you, the strife you,
I have no reason not to be polite to you
I like you, you're Infinite
As I am your benefit from ALL-STATES
Insure me and I'll insure you
I'll sacrifice my love for myself
Just to explore you - Endless
No pain no worry, distress less
Only thing treacherous the patience
The attitude non-reckless as I will forever
be that charm you wear
On Your Necklace
On the Regular
When she made me smile
I told her
by expressing
my heart openly
Dedicated
to the exhale
Devoted
to the inhale
my oxygen her
and her food
that nourishes
my thoughts
while my weight
is now maintained
by the love
I'm fed with by her
On the Regular
I told her
by expressing
my heart openly
Dedicated
to the exhale
Devoted
to the inhale
my oxygen her
and her food
that nourishes
my thoughts
while my weight
is now maintained
by the love
I'm fed with by her
On the Regular
Obedient
You know about life, right?
If so
how come you don`t talk about how you feel
when it comes to your own?
I`m interested, so interest me
as I request for you to share
I want to listen to your voice
while watching your breath
communicate with the air,
hold nothing from me I`m not here to judge
or critique you,
I just want to feel comfortable
when it comes time
for my mother to meet you
I want to sit back
with you while becoming more familiar
I want to envision your words
making my attention priceless
leaving others
who eavesdrop mindless
between your space and my time comes a road
so let us hold hands
before we walk the walk
as my memory
has an infinite audio of you
talking the talk
from here on out
your wishes are my commands
that I shall never take too lenient
because to you and only you I wish to be
Obedient
If so
how come you don`t talk about how you feel
when it comes to your own?
I`m interested, so interest me
as I request for you to share
I want to listen to your voice
while watching your breath
communicate with the air,
hold nothing from me I`m not here to judge
or critique you,
I just want to feel comfortable
when it comes time
for my mother to meet you
I want to sit back
with you while becoming more familiar
I want to envision your words
making my attention priceless
leaving others
who eavesdrop mindless
between your space and my time comes a road
so let us hold hands
before we walk the walk
as my memory
has an infinite audio of you
talking the talk
from here on out
your wishes are my commands
that I shall never take too lenient
because to you and only you I wish to be
Obedient
Numbing Up
One question for you
how can you show
and project such a glow
without expecting a reflex?
I am in love with the smile
that you project
I can no longer help
but to confess
my appreciation and it's crush
on you 29 almost 30 years
I wish to manifest
the strength
wisdom dedication
and unconditional respect,
you are my reason for
showing up to work
calling out sick
to spend time with you because
you are my sun
on a stormy day
that I always wait
to have shine upon me
knowing that
if I don't see you now
sooner or latter you will
start coming up
from the West - VA
to DC I smile to know that
you made it here safely
mesmerizing me with your presence
blushing my innocence
and my Heart
as you are the reason why it keeps
Numbing Up
how can you show
and project such a glow
without expecting a reflex?
I am in love with the smile
that you project
I can no longer help
but to confess
my appreciation and it's crush
on you 29 almost 30 years
I wish to manifest
the strength
wisdom dedication
and unconditional respect,
you are my reason for
showing up to work
calling out sick
to spend time with you because
you are my sun
on a stormy day
that I always wait
to have shine upon me
knowing that
if I don't see you now
sooner or latter you will
start coming up
from the West - VA
to DC I smile to know that
you made it here safely
mesmerizing me with your presence
blushing my innocence
and my Heart
as you are the reason why it keeps
Numbing Up
NOT CHARLES
And today this one will be
from the depths beneath my soul,
My confession - I Cheat
My admittance - I Lie
My declaration - I Steal,
I am empty inside from the abuse
The anguish the spiritual clues
The veil from in front of my face
I've moved to be seen not to be seen through
You see over the years - the Truth I blame,
as it has me in a noose
continuing to uncover pain after shame
Where now it seems like feelings are poured upon me like rain
Remember me - I'm the one you told
I Loved You to, but later found out
that it was just part of your game,
And now you want to run and admit guilt upon my name
instead I suggest you run to the Lord,
NOT CHARLES
from the depths beneath my soul,
My confession - I Cheat
My admittance - I Lie
My declaration - I Steal,
I am empty inside from the abuse
The anguish the spiritual clues
The veil from in front of my face
I've moved to be seen not to be seen through
You see over the years - the Truth I blame,
as it has me in a noose
continuing to uncover pain after shame
Where now it seems like feelings are poured upon me like rain
Remember me - I'm the one you told
I Loved You to, but later found out
that it was just part of your game,
And now you want to run and admit guilt upon my name
instead I suggest you run to the Lord,
NOT CHARLES
No Feelings to Hide
Now this is for all of the women out there
Who better pray and shout for help,
Cause when it comes to
AHKMEL PHAROD you'll receive
more attention then what you get
when you are by yourself,
no questions ever asked me about why I make
women fly with my verbal poetry lullaby's,
out of all due respect,
don't ask me just attach me
to your heart, then out last me,
keeping it real when I'm telling
a woman she will regret
ever walking pass me,
I'm here for your sensitivity
that you are timidly giving me,
as I patiently figure out why
I must express that I have
No Feelings to Hide
Who better pray and shout for help,
Cause when it comes to
AHKMEL PHAROD you'll receive
more attention then what you get
when you are by yourself,
no questions ever asked me about why I make
women fly with my verbal poetry lullaby's,
out of all due respect,
don't ask me just attach me
to your heart, then out last me,
keeping it real when I'm telling
a woman she will regret
ever walking pass me,
I'm here for your sensitivity
that you are timidly giving me,
as I patiently figure out why
I must express that I have
No Feelings to Hide
My World is Yours
Through out your years to come ahead
Please remember what I've always said
Do well in school and be kind to others
as this message is sent with love
from your Sweet GodMother,
the hugs will continue as even the calls
letting you know that I'll be there
to catch you if you fall,
take my hand as I take yours
looking to guide you through open doors,
Doors of promise, as well as
doors of spirituality
Growing in Christ through me
is all that really matters to me,
so forever accept my heart because
My World is Yours
Please remember what I've always said
Do well in school and be kind to others
as this message is sent with love
from your Sweet GodMother,
the hugs will continue as even the calls
letting you know that I'll be there
to catch you if you fall,
take my hand as I take yours
looking to guide you through open doors,
Doors of promise, as well as
doors of spirituality
Growing in Christ through me
is all that really matters to me,
so forever accept my heart because
My World is Yours
My Tribulation
Wiped away my tears of neglect
Clouds still moved in my direction
After the storm
The sun shined upon me
My protection
Saved by the graces
Of each rays attention
My stories are never ending
My sorrow my joy jubilation
Scribed by once a man
Only a few need rejuvenation
My many ways of understanding
My Trial and
My Tribulation
Clouds still moved in my direction
After the storm
The sun shined upon me
My protection
Saved by the graces
Of each rays attention
My stories are never ending
My sorrow my joy jubilation
Scribed by once a man
Only a few need rejuvenation
My many ways of understanding
My Trial and
My Tribulation
My Spirit
Sometimes I wish I didn't frown
The color of my skin BROWN delightful
I should be more than happy thankful
But still my expression seems to appear
on my face like a upside down smile
God, I need you more than ever now
please replenish my faith my beliefs,
and my reasons for achieving everything
that I set my helping hands out to accept
unconditionally in the beginning,
I don't feel like I use to anymore
my senses are numb have mercy please Lord!
Away with the hurt
Away with the dirt,
I pray that the weak stand behind my world
as I welcome you Heavenly Father,
receiving your love as an infinite gift
thanking you each day with joy for taking
and guiding back to you
My Spirit
Ahkmel Pharod
The color of my skin BROWN delightful
I should be more than happy thankful
But still my expression seems to appear
on my face like a upside down smile
God, I need you more than ever now
please replenish my faith my beliefs,
and my reasons for achieving everything
that I set my helping hands out to accept
unconditionally in the beginning,
I don't feel like I use to anymore
my senses are numb have mercy please Lord!
Away with the hurt
Away with the dirt,
I pray that the weak stand behind my world
as I welcome you Heavenly Father,
receiving your love as an infinite gift
thanking you each day with joy for taking
and guiding back to you
My Spirit
Ahkmel Pharod
My Space
Never in a day
Would I leave without you
My future, My present God's gift
My yesterday just yesterday not my past
In which I'm satisfied with that 29.
4 months and a couple of days later
Respect is all I'm searching for
a home with a white door
a woman who is willing to
step outside the box and explore more
that's all I ask
pretty much that is all I need
content with one thought
which is to allow my love for you
to soar to a height undiscovered by NASA
the purity of my longitude and my
S.ecure, P.assionate, A.ttentive, C.aring, E.motions
which equates to
My Space
Would I leave without you
My future, My present God's gift
My yesterday just yesterday not my past
In which I'm satisfied with that 29.
4 months and a couple of days later
Respect is all I'm searching for
a home with a white door
a woman who is willing to
step outside the box and explore more
that's all I ask
pretty much that is all I need
content with one thought
which is to allow my love for you
to soar to a height undiscovered by NASA
the purity of my longitude and my
S.ecure, P.assionate, A.ttentive, C.aring, E.motions
which equates to
My Space
My Souls Front Door
Longer the distance the more anticipating
the act of innocence You, Me of I of You
conversations about what is about You of I,
Sometimes we've cried sincerity survived
keeping my dedication alive
Wonderful, Is how I'm feeling right now,
How about yourself inspirational of that
of how much you really know
about that pull greater then gravitational,
Where our Heart is the art of power,
educational the wise recognized
through analytical thoughts observational
then in your words I relax take a moment
to listen before I speak back,
you are amazing....the grace
I want to sing with you
the sweetest sounds anytime any place
woman the adore of my amore
put forth to explore
providing you with 2 keys
to my world and
My Souls Front Door
the act of innocence You, Me of I of You
conversations about what is about You of I,
Sometimes we've cried sincerity survived
keeping my dedication alive
Wonderful, Is how I'm feeling right now,
How about yourself inspirational of that
of how much you really know
about that pull greater then gravitational,
Where our Heart is the art of power,
educational the wise recognized
through analytical thoughts observational
then in your words I relax take a moment
to listen before I speak back,
you are amazing....the grace
I want to sing with you
the sweetest sounds anytime any place
woman the adore of my amore
put forth to explore
providing you with 2 keys
to my world and
My Souls Front Door
My Poetry
How long will it be before you notice me
I'm starting to feel unloved
unappreciated once again
though strong in my own love
I'm fighting back each tear
as the depression starts to begin,
Warm all over from the inner man
to the outer woman,
I just can't seem to be accepted
in the fashion of respect
as in for myself I have,
I stood in front of crowds
sharing my love for you
I've shed tears in front of
my mother for you,
I've even got down on my knees and prayed
for one more chance to become a part of you,
frozen because of how cold
you have been to me,
I'm freezing,
Woman I need your warmth
more than ever before,
26 yrs living and I can't take
being so alone as I were never before,
do I or should I continue to cry
expressing myself through poetic lullaby's
that are sometimes difficult to transcribe
making it impossible
for your heart to subscribe,
I don't understand
so I continue to write
because all in all
what makes me feel good inside
at the end of the day is
My Poetry
I'm starting to feel unloved
unappreciated once again
though strong in my own love
I'm fighting back each tear
as the depression starts to begin,
Warm all over from the inner man
to the outer woman,
I just can't seem to be accepted
in the fashion of respect
as in for myself I have,
I stood in front of crowds
sharing my love for you
I've shed tears in front of
my mother for you,
I've even got down on my knees and prayed
for one more chance to become a part of you,
frozen because of how cold
you have been to me,
I'm freezing,
Woman I need your warmth
more than ever before,
26 yrs living and I can't take
being so alone as I were never before,
do I or should I continue to cry
expressing myself through poetic lullaby's
that are sometimes difficult to transcribe
making it impossible
for your heart to subscribe,
I don't understand
so I continue to write
because all in all
what makes me feel good inside
at the end of the day is
My Poetry
My Permanent Placement (w)
From the moon and back to my planet
The alignment can't find it
Eclipsing the cerebral cortex
To the lobes of my mental vortex
Still placed in front of the light
To provide shade to who enters my door next
Captivation motionless
the muscular relaxation
Defenseless pins and needles
The feeling the sensation
Thoughts once again from
My mind I'm orchestrating
Music my ears to your immediate
Verbal complex stimulation
Mood swings astrologically mentioning
The birth place my mark
upon this planet
My Permanent Placement
The alignment can't find it
Eclipsing the cerebral cortex
To the lobes of my mental vortex
Still placed in front of the light
To provide shade to who enters my door next
Captivation motionless
the muscular relaxation
Defenseless pins and needles
The feeling the sensation
Thoughts once again from
My mind I'm orchestrating
Music my ears to your immediate
Verbal complex stimulation
Mood swings astrologically mentioning
The birth place my mark
upon this planet
My Permanent Placement
My Monitor
My head aches with words for you
please notice that this
attention is undivided for you,
I might not be your type
and that's understandable,
as you are my light
that inspired my mind
as I have expanded it for you,
this love is locked away
for the smile in you,
so please receive my all
because right now it is what
I have for you,
as lovely as you are
take care if I am not the one,
you are seeking to catch
like a shooting star,
as my wish is only to become
closer to you than
My Monitor...
please notice that this
attention is undivided for you,
I might not be your type
and that's understandable,
as you are my light
that inspired my mind
as I have expanded it for you,
this love is locked away
for the smile in you,
so please receive my all
because right now it is what
I have for you,
as lovely as you are
take care if I am not the one,
you are seeking to catch
like a shooting star,
as my wish is only to become
closer to you than
My Monitor...
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
My Meaning
The second time around
Upon my heart
I feel the force of Gods
true love as it has me bound
My faith my spirit
As I speak you hear it
All along it's been here
Proliferated for you to tear it
My pleasure my reason
Repeating myself
and my reason for breathing
29 years old tasting the air
fresh already no need for cleaning
I'm too busy dreaming
Hoping my true love understands
My Meaning
Upon my heart
I feel the force of Gods
true love as it has me bound
My faith my spirit
As I speak you hear it
All along it's been here
Proliferated for you to tear it
My pleasure my reason
Repeating myself
and my reason for breathing
29 years old tasting the air
fresh already no need for cleaning
I'm too busy dreaming
Hoping my true love understands
My Meaning
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Before Being Told…..
Twenty,
only twenty seconds
From the thought of my soul
Reaching the boundaries
of your self control
hands held hearts connected
I see myself
no longer feeling cold
Within your arms
More precious then gold
I look to the sun
just to see your eyes
where I hold
on to each ray
before my lungs implode
looking to love you dearly everyday
Before Being Told
only twenty seconds
From the thought of my soul
Reaching the boundaries
of your self control
hands held hearts connected
I see myself
no longer feeling cold
Within your arms
More precious then gold
I look to the sun
just to see your eyes
where I hold
on to each ray
before my lungs implode
looking to love you dearly everyday
Before Being Told
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
My Match
Opened my eyes then my heart
blinded by your reflection
getting off on the right track,
similar to the "Isley Brother's
Love Ballads" 3rd Track,
right here in front of you
my trust I counter act
upon you and how you react
some old some new
some borrow some blue
like the low flame from a match
each night I will strike
lighting a candle for you
cause I'm in love
with being attached
to the thought of knowing
I'm your new catch
handcuffed by velvet rope
I think I've met
My Match
blinded by your reflection
getting off on the right track,
similar to the "Isley Brother's
Love Ballads" 3rd Track,
right here in front of you
my trust I counter act
upon you and how you react
some old some new
some borrow some blue
like the low flame from a match
each night I will strike
lighting a candle for you
cause I'm in love
with being attached
to the thought of knowing
I'm your new catch
handcuffed by velvet rope
I think I've met
My Match
My Life
Today is the day for my life
to become yours,
Will you be my girlfriend?
Remembering that question being
the only question a girl wanted to hear
now things are different blood
must be shed to prove that I am serious
or I have to have more than
I can leave this world with - why is this?
I just want you to be my girl
someone that can claim me
as a part of her world
say my name with out playing games
mentality construed with new rules
now I have to have something to prove
to convince it's not only about
the hair cut now or the nice smile
I just want you to be my girl
I want to write love letters only to you
I want to see you smile
as I walk next to you
there is no need to decide if I'm wrong
or right as I strive to keep your heart
pumping today resting your thoughts
sleeping in the afternoon
just so you can daydream at night
please cherish the day
before I disappear from out of your life
where there would be no more
expressing myself to you everyday
no more first class non-stop flights
into my heart, my soul and
My Life
to become yours,
Will you be my girlfriend?
Remembering that question being
the only question a girl wanted to hear
now things are different blood
must be shed to prove that I am serious
or I have to have more than
I can leave this world with - why is this?
I just want you to be my girl
someone that can claim me
as a part of her world
say my name with out playing games
mentality construed with new rules
now I have to have something to prove
to convince it's not only about
the hair cut now or the nice smile
I just want you to be my girl
I want to write love letters only to you
I want to see you smile
as I walk next to you
there is no need to decide if I'm wrong
or right as I strive to keep your heart
pumping today resting your thoughts
sleeping in the afternoon
just so you can daydream at night
please cherish the day
before I disappear from out of your life
where there would be no more
expressing myself to you everyday
no more first class non-stop flights
into my heart, my soul and
My Life
My GooseHead Bracelet
If you had what I really needed
Then why would I run away,
you see your mommy's the dearest
So the hell with Faye
cause she's Dunaway
Fell off the wagon
Band left without her
You took the place of now
I got you screaming louder
Around your rosey I sniff then I duck
Crouch down before I eat your goose
Best to be loose
Cause tonight is not the night
For me to ride the caboose,
So choo choose your lip
And mouth positioning
You wasn't listening
I hear you still bitchin in
The room that you couldn't fit in
haven't even came in
Woman take your time
Stop thinking you enslaving
this man aint about misbehaving
Just representing the extra innings
Can you handle it
Without all the fat lip
Reprimanded punishment
Just cast out if I hear out
The wrong name coming out you mouth
Word! With no respect
putting you back in check
with my life potion you wear
now around your neck
leaving you wondering
about that name you didn't see on
My GooseHead Bracelet
Then why would I run away,
you see your mommy's the dearest
So the hell with Faye
cause she's Dunaway
Fell off the wagon
Band left without her
You took the place of now
I got you screaming louder
Around your rosey I sniff then I duck
Crouch down before I eat your goose
Best to be loose
Cause tonight is not the night
For me to ride the caboose,
So choo choose your lip
And mouth positioning
You wasn't listening
I hear you still bitchin in
The room that you couldn't fit in
haven't even came in
Woman take your time
Stop thinking you enslaving
this man aint about misbehaving
Just representing the extra innings
Can you handle it
Without all the fat lip
Reprimanded punishment
Just cast out if I hear out
The wrong name coming out you mouth
Word! With no respect
putting you back in check
with my life potion you wear
now around your neck
leaving you wondering
about that name you didn't see on
My GooseHead Bracelet
My Friend
This poem is sort of a reincarnation
Of the smoothest sort
I think back to each day
Of how I met you
Very collectively innocent You I
As I must admit
That at this time
A lot was on my mind
I wanted to love you
As I thought about it
As heavily as the thought
Of you lying next to me
I couldn't wait to get you alone
Couldn't you tell
Or did it ever cross your mental
One thing I knew I had to do
Was to take you by the heart
Hold you tight while introducing to you
my gentle approach
not rushing my lips
to the softness of your throat
Infatuated I was
In love I was
Rushing myself to fall into with you
Just because you were
Everything I wanted at that time
Plus being beautiful
Always adds to the natural feeling
I usually have towards someone
As appealing as you
I smile now because we smiled then
Taking this time right now
To let you know
You will always be that woman
I'll be happy to call
My Friend
Of the smoothest sort
I think back to each day
Of how I met you
Very collectively innocent You I
As I must admit
That at this time
A lot was on my mind
I wanted to love you
As I thought about it
As heavily as the thought
Of you lying next to me
I couldn't wait to get you alone
Couldn't you tell
Or did it ever cross your mental
One thing I knew I had to do
Was to take you by the heart
Hold you tight while introducing to you
my gentle approach
not rushing my lips
to the softness of your throat
Infatuated I was
In love I was
Rushing myself to fall into with you
Just because you were
Everything I wanted at that time
Plus being beautiful
Always adds to the natural feeling
I usually have towards someone
As appealing as you
I smile now because we smiled then
Taking this time right now
To let you know
You will always be that woman
I'll be happy to call
My Friend
My Flower
Visions of silk
the idea of sensual romance
Keeps me longing
for a touch that is endless
You will love me never love me not
I trust in your confidence
And the grass that surrounds us
above the clouds,
water in the form of your presence
excites the outlining colors of the skies
I enjoy you because the decorating
of my world is you
as I will continue to
unconditionally keep you as
My Flower
the idea of sensual romance
Keeps me longing
for a touch that is endless
You will love me never love me not
I trust in your confidence
And the grass that surrounds us
above the clouds,
water in the form of your presence
excites the outlining colors of the skies
I enjoy you because the decorating
of my world is you
as I will continue to
unconditionally keep you as
My Flower
My Every Need
Congratulations to you
for it is you
I wake now
with the thoughts of me achieving you,
I no longer count to two
because I've become one - one mind
one love Brooklyn shining on your reason
your move and your smile beautiful,
like the texture of your body
smooth my touch yearns for your
obsessions without the aggression
I've learned my lessons,
My Love It's all about transgression
my pain your smile healed now forever,
where have you been all of this time?
GOD SENT from him receiving blessings
after blessings demonstratively gratefully
showing unconditional attention
Aware of only you in my life admittance
never hesitant like taxi cab confessions
I speak freely about how you tend to
My Every Need
for it is you
I wake now
with the thoughts of me achieving you,
I no longer count to two
because I've become one - one mind
one love Brooklyn shining on your reason
your move and your smile beautiful,
like the texture of your body
smooth my touch yearns for your
obsessions without the aggression
I've learned my lessons,
My Love It's all about transgression
my pain your smile healed now forever,
where have you been all of this time?
GOD SENT from him receiving blessings
after blessings demonstratively gratefully
showing unconditional attention
Aware of only you in my life admittance
never hesitant like taxi cab confessions
I speak freely about how you tend to
My Every Need
My Black Woman
In My Life I've missed you Black Woman
The Strength The Blackness
The 100% Roots Deep Chocolate Black Woman
I'm drawn to your shadow Black Woman
please accept one of the lost tribesmen
My name is his name "AHKMEL"
Descendant of Hebrew, My faith
You I want to exercise
my universe with Black Woman
Your Hands Your Instruments, Your Voice
I would love to hear you sing Black Woman
so you can free my victimized attraction
Myself negligence to maintain
Your eyes contact, Love captured no longer
can I refrain My Queen I beg of you to
ease my pain The linear the 90 degrees
multiplied by 4
I believe this feeling
I've experienced before - Black Woman
That velvet painting zodiac 69 Cancer man
patiently waiting at your front door - Black Woman
Grand now as I stand now
Proud to a man now
How Beautiful - Black Woman
Side by Side Your front My front - Black Woman
Neutral nurturing the essence
My 5 point underlined by the 5%
as each Black Woman is the beginning
to the beginning of another Black Woman
so as a Black Man it is
My duty to Respect, Honor and Protect
My Black Woman
The Strength The Blackness
The 100% Roots Deep Chocolate Black Woman
I'm drawn to your shadow Black Woman
please accept one of the lost tribesmen
My name is his name "AHKMEL"
Descendant of Hebrew, My faith
You I want to exercise
my universe with Black Woman
Your Hands Your Instruments, Your Voice
I would love to hear you sing Black Woman
so you can free my victimized attraction
Myself negligence to maintain
Your eyes contact, Love captured no longer
can I refrain My Queen I beg of you to
ease my pain The linear the 90 degrees
multiplied by 4
I believe this feeling
I've experienced before - Black Woman
That velvet painting zodiac 69 Cancer man
patiently waiting at your front door - Black Woman
Grand now as I stand now
Proud to a man now
How Beautiful - Black Woman
Side by Side Your front My front - Black Woman
Neutral nurturing the essence
My 5 point underlined by the 5%
as each Black Woman is the beginning
to the beginning of another Black Woman
so as a Black Man it is
My duty to Respect, Honor and Protect
My Black Woman
Motionless (w)
Some things happen
for reasons
where some things just exist
within the realms of pertaining
to reveal why we exist
My Lavendar Love,
I am hear to experience
the nature of your womb
your Matrix
as a woman - your plenty
is what keeps me attached
I am seeing abilities and movements
before they position
or reposition themselves
paralyzed within your sight
tranquilized by your delight
I ask before knowing the root
of the question
What is bliss - What is ignorance?
I ask.......
Can my time here with you mean?
Will my time here with you mean?
Time I ask of your own to share
with your reason to understand
Why we are here...
Happiness is Bliss
beyond the misunderstanding
of ignorance
and the common theory of substance
defining our instincts
to believe that happiness
is to be found
after experiencing unhappiness
which brings me to this day
and why I lay....sometimes
Motionless
for reasons
where some things just exist
within the realms of pertaining
to reveal why we exist
My Lavendar Love,
I am hear to experience
the nature of your womb
your Matrix
as a woman - your plenty
is what keeps me attached
I am seeing abilities and movements
before they position
or reposition themselves
paralyzed within your sight
tranquilized by your delight
I ask before knowing the root
of the question
What is bliss - What is ignorance?
I ask.......
Can my time here with you mean?
Will my time here with you mean?
Time I ask of your own to share
with your reason to understand
Why we are here...
Happiness is Bliss
beyond the misunderstanding
of ignorance
and the common theory of substance
defining our instincts
to believe that happiness
is to be found
after experiencing unhappiness
which brings me to this day
and why I lay....sometimes
Motionless
More Than You Use It
You had me feeling
Like my thoughts and I didn't matter
I'm speaking because I believe
In your comprehension
Failing me incredibly, repetitively,
Confused to a unreturnable degree
Emotionally, I recycle righteously,
Without a thesaurus is the way
I simplify through scenario or chorus
So tell me what types of books
you like to read, the types of music,
So I can adapt to your thought process
More Than You Use It
Like my thoughts and I didn't matter
I'm speaking because I believe
In your comprehension
Failing me incredibly, repetitively,
Confused to a unreturnable degree
Emotionally, I recycle righteously,
Without a thesaurus is the way
I simplify through scenario or chorus
So tell me what types of books
you like to read, the types of music,
So I can adapt to your thought process
More Than You Use It
More Than Words
If you wonder about my silence,
It is only to benefit your essence,
Which magnifies every special thing
about you, every vision
I fantasize about you.
Beautiful, You make me feel like
there`s something greater than telling you
how I want to be apart of
what we have built,
Securing all that needs to be safe
looking for more than stars in dreams
let me take your mind on that endless
journey beside me as I warp speed into your
galaxy leaving all behind all for you,
because that is what truly matters to me,
for I shall here on out
never go by you unheard
counting each second go by
as I am now ready to express
to you at this time my love with
More Than Words
It is only to benefit your essence,
Which magnifies every special thing
about you, every vision
I fantasize about you.
Beautiful, You make me feel like
there`s something greater than telling you
how I want to be apart of
what we have built,
Securing all that needs to be safe
looking for more than stars in dreams
let me take your mind on that endless
journey beside me as I warp speed into your
galaxy leaving all behind all for you,
because that is what truly matters to me,
for I shall here on out
never go by you unheard
counting each second go by
as I am now ready to express
to you at this time my love with
More Than Words
Mocha Mahogany
Found like the memory
Hands held you remember me
I whispered once before
You listened
And counted
Each way I spoke gingerly
Thoughts of you refresh me
Ahhhh quenching and refreshing
Thirsty no more
Words liquefying though each pause
I sip... I sip... then enjoy
The smooth taste of how pure you are
Addicted by the chase
I take my time to desire the natural flavor
You remind me of a reason to savor
The quality motivated by the quantity
As My lifetime supply of
Mocha Mahogany
Hands held you remember me
I whispered once before
You listened
And counted
Each way I spoke gingerly
Thoughts of you refresh me
Ahhhh quenching and refreshing
Thirsty no more
Words liquefying though each pause
I sip... I sip... then enjoy
The smooth taste of how pure you are
Addicted by the chase
I take my time to desire the natural flavor
You remind me of a reason to savor
The quality motivated by the quantity
As My lifetime supply of
Mocha Mahogany
Mentally Escorted Righteously
Without the chemicals the need for existence
Would be the opposite of balance
I mean The ways of the earth
your home my hell
I slowly count each moment and forget to
Remember my blessings on purpose
Too many seconds fortunate - equaling
The space between each minute I am in it,
The dreams just to see who is
really compatible with me,
flight mentally Mach 8
just to replace the fallacies
I think about majesties and kingdoms
ruled by the royal families,
who am I? Kearse
recognize the formalities
of one who has walked and talked boldly
just to keep from ending up a casualty
conceited through spirituality as I am
Mentally Escorted Righteously
Would be the opposite of balance
I mean The ways of the earth
your home my hell
I slowly count each moment and forget to
Remember my blessings on purpose
Too many seconds fortunate - equaling
The space between each minute I am in it,
The dreams just to see who is
really compatible with me,
flight mentally Mach 8
just to replace the fallacies
I think about majesties and kingdoms
ruled by the royal families,
who am I? Kearse
recognize the formalities
of one who has walked and talked boldly
just to keep from ending up a casualty
conceited through spirituality as I am
Mentally Escorted Righteously
Mentally Cuddling
I guess you were
too distracted to have a clue
about how I hustle and smuggle
that shame-shame
with the no name
got you all confused
platonically and ebonically
gave you lines - line by line,
as you were too busy
brushing your hair
stressing the back of your mind
where you should be studying
instead of trying to
over associate with
too many men buddying
looking for validation with your
Mentally Cuddling
too distracted to have a clue
about how I hustle and smuggle
that shame-shame
with the no name
got you all confused
platonically and ebonically
gave you lines - line by line,
as you were too busy
brushing your hair
stressing the back of your mind
where you should be studying
instead of trying to
over associate with
too many men buddying
looking for validation with your
Mentally Cuddling
Meeting of the Minds (w)
Entwined like marriage rings
Playing out games guessing
Of what the other will bring
Exposing dreams, hope & love
Buried deep within the soul
Tunnel of secret thoughts
And stories left untold
An allurement made by fantasy
Of what the other will share
Plugging into one's escapade
With perceptual dreams found there
Anxious Utopians linking their chains
Of what they believe, hope & desire
A sign to welcome only the deepest poets
with minds that are there for hire
at the same time during the
Meeting of The Minds
Playing out games guessing
Of what the other will bring
Exposing dreams, hope & love
Buried deep within the soul
Tunnel of secret thoughts
And stories left untold
An allurement made by fantasy
Of what the other will share
Plugging into one's escapade
With perceptual dreams found there
Anxious Utopians linking their chains
Of what they believe, hope & desire
A sign to welcome only the deepest poets
with minds that are there for hire
at the same time during the
Meeting of The Minds
Maintain You (w)
If all I would enjoy doing
If all I would enjoy expressing
Was all I wanted to do, Would my worth mean
something special to you?
Like the moments I listen
Like the moments were kissing
Is life becoming more and more
special to you?
Faithfully before my own
world I've placed you,
receiving my love unconditionally
I promise to never shame you
misunderstand your love for me,
I promise to never blame you
Proud and forever appreciative
of the woman that became you
everyday I pray for God to continue to save you
as he has I, his child, his son
allowed me to become a man with a gentle
heart who never will try to change you
as my purpose here is only to
Maintain You
If all I would enjoy expressing
Was all I wanted to do, Would my worth mean
something special to you?
Like the moments I listen
Like the moments were kissing
Is life becoming more and more
special to you?
Faithfully before my own
world I've placed you,
receiving my love unconditionally
I promise to never shame you
misunderstand your love for me,
I promise to never blame you
Proud and forever appreciative
of the woman that became you
everyday I pray for God to continue to save you
as he has I, his child, his son
allowed me to become a man with a gentle
heart who never will try to change you
as my purpose here is only to
Maintain You
Loving Me
For a minute
for a second
or maybe an hour
sands flow beneath my feet,
the texture warm
like your fragrance,
I`m dying for
that island experience with you,
I`m living for that
waterfall love with you,
my carefulness is the way you sleep,
my hand, your back the way I ease,
the pain is a memory
of the way you breathe,
speechless I am
to why you are not here with me
Loving Me
for a second
or maybe an hour
sands flow beneath my feet,
the texture warm
like your fragrance,
I`m dying for
that island experience with you,
I`m living for that
waterfall love with you,
my carefulness is the way you sleep,
my hand, your back the way I ease,
the pain is a memory
of the way you breathe,
speechless I am
to why you are not here with me
Loving Me
Love to Give
Within the darkness
because of what you
have provided me
I knew where you were
I knew where to find you
beneath the sun
I sit still thinking
about your smile
continuously following me
Securing my fears
I want to do nothing else
but to believe in you
then your feelings
are captured simultaneously
by me to end the discomforting thoughts
that you may still own
I am here to give you
all of the love I have inside
so please I beg of you
to take this Love
before I have no more
Love to Give
because of what you
have provided me
I knew where you were
I knew where to find you
beneath the sun
I sit still thinking
about your smile
continuously following me
Securing my fears
I want to do nothing else
but to believe in you
then your feelings
are captured simultaneously
by me to end the discomforting thoughts
that you may still own
I am here to give you
all of the love I have inside
so please I beg of you
to take this Love
before I have no more
Love to Give
Love Me Dearly
The space between your gulf and stream
are now crystallized within my dream
I right now wish to set a trend
upon the friend in you
So please drop your guard for AHK
And AHKNOWLEDGE that I wish
Not to ever offend or pretend
to be there for you
before you need me
to be there for you,
When you are unable
to sleep easy, always remember that
My love is God's Love
so please understand me
through him sincerely
before you begin to
Love Me Dearly
are now crystallized within my dream
I right now wish to set a trend
upon the friend in you
So please drop your guard for AHK
And AHKNOWLEDGE that I wish
Not to ever offend or pretend
to be there for you
before you need me
to be there for you,
When you are unable
to sleep easy, always remember that
My love is God's Love
so please understand me
through him sincerely
before you begin to
Love Me Dearly
Love Is
Love is Me
My smile mirrored by the
oceanic glow of your ray of light
(My sunshine)
that makes my stomach fight
it's every urge to bite you
just so you can see
and feel how much I would like to
become the man that invites you
to that world I exist on
My love don't be afraid
or worried about trying to
please me take your time
and believing in yourself
before you plan to ease me
this is more than you've seen
more than you've dreamed
and because I know that
it is on you
that I will continue to lean
to show this world that we are
heavenly examples of what
Love is
My smile mirrored by the
oceanic glow of your ray of light
(My sunshine)
that makes my stomach fight
it's every urge to bite you
just so you can see
and feel how much I would like to
become the man that invites you
to that world I exist on
My love don't be afraid
or worried about trying to
please me take your time
and believing in yourself
before you plan to ease me
this is more than you've seen
more than you've dreamed
and because I know that
it is on you
that I will continue to lean
to show this world that we are
heavenly examples of what
Love is
Loud and Clear (w)
Knock! Knock!
You don't have to worry
about guessing who's there
cause the smell is too much
for you to not bear,
My sweat is on pause this time
letting my spine relax
unlike the last time I was here
all up in you and your mind
inclination of the thought to recognize
sight beyond fear traction and suspension
to your ground I swear
this will be a good year
for you to prepare to stay
close not far just near
the place below my navel
under the boxers that I wear
Hot, Hard, Heavy, and Aware
of what you need promising you
my understanding
Loud and Clear
You don't have to worry
about guessing who's there
cause the smell is too much
for you to not bear,
My sweat is on pause this time
letting my spine relax
unlike the last time I was here
all up in you and your mind
inclination of the thought to recognize
sight beyond fear traction and suspension
to your ground I swear
this will be a good year
for you to prepare to stay
close not far just near
the place below my navel
under the boxers that I wear
Hot, Hard, Heavy, and Aware
of what you need promising you
my understanding
Loud and Clear
Lord, Where are you?
A love song, a sweet sound,
Birds chirping, the wind blowing,
The sky moving at a rapid pace,
Lord, when shall i see your face,
I`m here one day
Gone the next,
I hide from you
Please show me what to do,
The storm is coming,
The rain is falling
The trees are blowing
Lord, where is your face
I need to know
Where should i go
Should I hide
Should I stay inside
Who am I, I`m here one day
And gone the next, I`m confused
Lord, Where are you?
Birds chirping, the wind blowing,
The sky moving at a rapid pace,
Lord, when shall i see your face,
I`m here one day
Gone the next,
I hide from you
Please show me what to do,
The storm is coming,
The rain is falling
The trees are blowing
Lord, where is your face
I need to know
Where should i go
Should I hide
Should I stay inside
Who am I, I`m here one day
And gone the next, I`m confused
Lord, Where are you?
Looking in My Direction
Exciting is the attitude
as I sit across
the room from you,
as you are allowing myself
to be spoiled by the legs on you
I must say thank you,
my pleasure your pleasure
your figure my treasure
oh my, oh my, I almost
had to try before my mind
became wet enough
for my thoughts to dry
in front at attention
I must mention
my muscles feel no tension
as I am loose enough
to have you
intimately climax while
Looking in My Direction
as I sit across
the room from you,
as you are allowing myself
to be spoiled by the legs on you
I must say thank you,
my pleasure your pleasure
your figure my treasure
oh my, oh my, I almost
had to try before my mind
became wet enough
for my thoughts to dry
in front at attention
I must mention
my muscles feel no tension
as I am loose enough
to have you
intimately climax while
Looking in My Direction
Lisa's Songs
Hear it echoing in the wind
So peaceful and calm
Feeling the softness of her skin
The singing of her song
Individuality, peace and love
Giving, sharing and caring too
The rhythm vibrates high above
The drops of pain like mountain dew
Dig the tunes that she will play
Dropping herself like little clues
Like a sunshine, rain, and lightning day
She'll infuse your soul avec la blues
Poetic lullabies in search of meaning
Bonding happiness, unity, love and peace
Relax your eyes and open your ears for
the melodies of life which are all
Lisa's Songs
So peaceful and calm
Feeling the softness of her skin
The singing of her song
Individuality, peace and love
Giving, sharing and caring too
The rhythm vibrates high above
The drops of pain like mountain dew
Dig the tunes that she will play
Dropping herself like little clues
Like a sunshine, rain, and lightning day
She'll infuse your soul avec la blues
Poetic lullabies in search of meaning
Bonding happiness, unity, love and peace
Relax your eyes and open your ears for
the melodies of life which are all
Lisa's Songs
Sunday, August 07, 2005
After I Came through
Your experience is my experience
Like those white boys in
That movie deliverance
I won’t tell if you make it
Syke I am just playing
I was there when them niggas
Had you naked
Bucked naked squealing
Like a pig and shit
Shit was funny and shit
Had you acting mad different and shit
What you gonna do now
Call a psychiatrist so he can
Disfigure your mind and shit
Fucked up from the butt up
Nothing left no dignity
No self respect backwards intellect
I bet you feel like killing and shit
To feel good about your experience
Which is now my experience
That I sometimes laugh about
To myself then sometimes out loud
Every time over you, I see that cloud
Witnessing rain drops falling on your head
What is that all about?
Can’t escape you from you
How sad but true
Just maybe suicide will get the lead out
Or maybe the red out
Yeah you were sore
Screaming please no more
Can you please take the head out
After I Came Through
Like those white boys in
That movie deliverance
I won’t tell if you make it
Syke I am just playing
I was there when them niggas
Had you naked
Bucked naked squealing
Like a pig and shit
Shit was funny and shit
Had you acting mad different and shit
What you gonna do now
Call a psychiatrist so he can
Disfigure your mind and shit
Fucked up from the butt up
Nothing left no dignity
No self respect backwards intellect
I bet you feel like killing and shit
To feel good about your experience
Which is now my experience
That I sometimes laugh about
To myself then sometimes out loud
Every time over you, I see that cloud
Witnessing rain drops falling on your head
What is that all about?
Can’t escape you from you
How sad but true
Just maybe suicide will get the lead out
Or maybe the red out
Yeah you were sore
Screaming please no more
Can you please take the head out
After I Came Through
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Linking You
I sat noticed
then realized where I truly
belonged in your life
comfortable as you are
no longer shining as a star
So I throw you back to the sky
with no aim just far
anticipating you coming to
terms wanting to practice patience
How can we truly experience
Through others how we really are
I think my kindness is mistaking
For a weakness which makes things
very hard, that's why I do the unthinkable
Cocoa Butter Baby Oil Daquiri
Experiencing you enjoying the way I taste
before I start drinking you
Where back to this planet My world
again I'm bringing you
where it's all about the love
that will provide me with the strength
I'll use to start
Linking You
then realized where I truly
belonged in your life
comfortable as you are
no longer shining as a star
So I throw you back to the sky
with no aim just far
anticipating you coming to
terms wanting to practice patience
How can we truly experience
Through others how we really are
I think my kindness is mistaking
For a weakness which makes things
very hard, that's why I do the unthinkable
Cocoa Butter Baby Oil Daquiri
Experiencing you enjoying the way I taste
before I start drinking you
Where back to this planet My world
again I'm bringing you
where it's all about the love
that will provide me with the strength
I'll use to start
Linking You
Line by Line
You my sexy tropical horizon
beyond the clouds of amore
a woman who I truly adore
please don't be afraid in allowing me
to see what you have in store
behind your French Vanilla Door
for I am your Strawberry Man
tracing your outer appearance
like no man has ever before
you flesh, embraces me,
your lips places me in a new world
awaiting for you to explore...
So what goes through your mind
is what races through mine
each time I express myself to you
you get the message of my point
handcuffing your heart and your brain
to my own unconditionally
Line By Line
beyond the clouds of amore
a woman who I truly adore
please don't be afraid in allowing me
to see what you have in store
behind your French Vanilla Door
for I am your Strawberry Man
tracing your outer appearance
like no man has ever before
you flesh, embraces me,
your lips places me in a new world
awaiting for you to explore...
So what goes through your mind
is what races through mine
each time I express myself to you
you get the message of my point
handcuffing your heart and your brain
to my own unconditionally
Line By Line
Like Yours
I found a smile,
Yours
I found a laugh,
Yours
I found a touch,
Yours
I found a heart,
Yours
I found a spirit,
Yours
I've now found a reason to marry
and to forever love a love
Like Yours
Yours
I found a laugh,
Yours
I found a touch,
Yours
I found a heart,
Yours
I found a spirit,
Yours
I've now found a reason to marry
and to forever love a love
Like Yours
Like Snow in the Winter
Just for your attention
I guarantee my love
For you with patience
Talking softly
As if your ears were
2 inches away from me
Beautiful are the Day Dreams
I appreciate having
Because of you now
Like the sun shining
Upon me brightly
Similar to your smile
I think of seeing you
With me happy forever
Scaring me whenever
There is a dull moment
Leaving our feelings unpredictable
Like Snow in the Winter
I guarantee my love
For you with patience
Talking softly
As if your ears were
2 inches away from me
Beautiful are the Day Dreams
I appreciate having
Because of you now
Like the sun shining
Upon me brightly
Similar to your smile
I think of seeing you
With me happy forever
Scaring me whenever
There is a dull moment
Leaving our feelings unpredictable
Like Snow in the Winter
Like I'm Suppose to Do
You will knowingly
know its me as in every step
with you I take
a thought is then transpired
and stored in my memory bank
just to one day bring out the light
with the subject of love
as I shall allow it to reflect
from my face upon yours
whether it be in or out doors
energetically I will never be
afraid to approach the woman in you
Like I'm Suppose to Do
know its me as in every step
with you I take
a thought is then transpired
and stored in my memory bank
just to one day bring out the light
with the subject of love
as I shall allow it to reflect
from my face upon yours
whether it be in or out doors
energetically I will never be
afraid to approach the woman in you
Like I'm Suppose to Do
Let Me Shine (w)
Sometimes 5 AM
Sometimes 6
I awake the sleeping
uncovered plants and flowers
as the stems
straighten themselves
as do you
my African Violet
on the inside, indoors
my rays explores the sensuous
hybrids of yours
as your reflection replies
to the smile of mine
while you
Let Me Shine
Sometimes 6
I awake the sleeping
uncovered plants and flowers
as the stems
straighten themselves
as do you
my African Violet
on the inside, indoors
my rays explores the sensuous
hybrids of yours
as your reflection replies
to the smile of mine
while you
Let Me Shine
Leaving My Chest Tight
Can this be so real as the first day
as you walked my way,
Can my thoughts be
explained as you make me cry inside,
I want to be with you,
I want to breathe with you
because special I feel,
as my thoughts have reached you,
writing me poems now,
making me smile now,
Woman I adore you,
as I am worthier than before now,
to share or not to share,
without your care,
I would be where...?
so as I conclude
our skies will remain blue
complementing the sun
as it shines just for me and you...
Leaving My Chest Tight
as you walked my way,
Can my thoughts be
explained as you make me cry inside,
I want to be with you,
I want to breathe with you
because special I feel,
as my thoughts have reached you,
writing me poems now,
making me smile now,
Woman I adore you,
as I am worthier than before now,
to share or not to share,
without your care,
I would be where...?
so as I conclude
our skies will remain blue
complementing the sun
as it shines just for me and you...
Leaving My Chest Tight
Learning Together
Tearing away
all unnecessary needs
proclaiming the ability
to see the light
of promise and hope
that you provide.
Excited for you
can not only be a crime
but a felony
imprisoned by your attention
through time,
Free willed and obligated
by decisions
based on intelligence
and wisdom that may be
Afro-Centrically hidden,
let me be the one
to parallel my thoughts
on a vertical plane
breaking down
you spiritual condensation
having nothing to do with rain,
Run to me and I'll run to you
My thoughts and yours
one plus one
to equal one and not two,
so question me
and I'll answer forever,
because it brings me pleasure
when we are
Learning Together
all unnecessary needs
proclaiming the ability
to see the light
of promise and hope
that you provide.
Excited for you
can not only be a crime
but a felony
imprisoned by your attention
through time,
Free willed and obligated
by decisions
based on intelligence
and wisdom that may be
Afro-Centrically hidden,
let me be the one
to parallel my thoughts
on a vertical plane
breaking down
you spiritual condensation
having nothing to do with rain,
Run to me and I'll run to you
My thoughts and yours
one plus one
to equal one and not two,
so question me
and I'll answer forever,
because it brings me pleasure
when we are
Learning Together
Keeping it Sacred
Believing that my time
Is worth anything less
than the time of your own
Keeps me secure with the fact of
your feelings being for me fully grown
The dedication I see it
The sincerity is there for me
And I believe it, like when you tell me
You love me after I receive it,
You are appreciated,
similar to my body to your eyes
Before I get naked leaving me
with these thoughts
About you becoming my wife
Presenting you with my heart
For you to take it
hoping that you never look to replace it
at the same time I pray for you to
Keep It Sacred
Is worth anything less
than the time of your own
Keeps me secure with the fact of
your feelings being for me fully grown
The dedication I see it
The sincerity is there for me
And I believe it, like when you tell me
You love me after I receive it,
You are appreciated,
similar to my body to your eyes
Before I get naked leaving me
with these thoughts
About you becoming my wife
Presenting you with my heart
For you to take it
hoping that you never look to replace it
at the same time I pray for you to
Keep It Sacred
Just Sitting Here
And then sometimes I’m suppose to explain
What makes AHKMEL-AHKMEL,
Say my name out loud or ask someone about me
Get on your knees and pray to God about me
Or just open up your heart and let me in
Because inside of your heart is where I belong
Just think about what I’ve shared with you already
On top of the fact that you’ve never met me
Looking to love me more than you realize
As you steady accept me and accept me
I will never fail you, because you are my energy
You are why I’m polite publicly
If you move away, just don’t forget about me
I’m that Brooklyn sunshine confident in my own right
So respect me, and the things that I strive for
Looking out for your heart
is my duty that I stay alive for
Keep opening up my art
and watch our love connect four.
The passage way is open wide like Sliding Doors
you can now take my heart and connect it to yours
I’m enjoying you, the responses, and the positive attitude
Somebody is smiling right now
because I know how I make myself feel
as this poem was composed
and inspired by you while
Just Sitting Here
What makes AHKMEL-AHKMEL,
Say my name out loud or ask someone about me
Get on your knees and pray to God about me
Or just open up your heart and let me in
Because inside of your heart is where I belong
Just think about what I’ve shared with you already
On top of the fact that you’ve never met me
Looking to love me more than you realize
As you steady accept me and accept me
I will never fail you, because you are my energy
You are why I’m polite publicly
If you move away, just don’t forget about me
I’m that Brooklyn sunshine confident in my own right
So respect me, and the things that I strive for
Looking out for your heart
is my duty that I stay alive for
Keep opening up my art
and watch our love connect four.
The passage way is open wide like Sliding Doors
you can now take my heart and connect it to yours
I’m enjoying you, the responses, and the positive attitude
Somebody is smiling right now
because I know how I make myself feel
as this poem was composed
and inspired by you while
Just Sitting Here
Just Me (w)
Brother who expresses himself
Through the volcanic eruption of words
Hot and heavy flowing rapidly
Through cyberspace and onto white paper
Ready for delivery to those who welcomes
my presence and feels the beat
like the congo drums permeating through ears
For my chest is still tight
Closing my eyes to visualize
the wonders of my soul
The mystery game did I play
Should Ahkmel stay or runaway?
However, it's like countless
babies crying out from the suction cups
inserted into their mothers' wombs
relating to the outer thoughts
escaping from outside my brain
that has me walking restlessly
through a world
others cannot see but analyze
through the escapades captured on paper
or outputted to a cyberspace screen,
But know, I feel deep within
For I am a weary traveler
Looking to be heard
And not always understood
Removing those chains to hear the echoes
Of my voice that whispers in the wind
Feeling the breeze of my own presence
Following slowly behind me
And know, I can be to myself a friend
As I have now let go
Listening to discover the inner me
Where at a time my resistance
has kept others remote
where I am now removing the glass
That separated my presence from the world
While I was being
Just Me
Through the volcanic eruption of words
Hot and heavy flowing rapidly
Through cyberspace and onto white paper
Ready for delivery to those who welcomes
my presence and feels the beat
like the congo drums permeating through ears
For my chest is still tight
Closing my eyes to visualize
the wonders of my soul
The mystery game did I play
Should Ahkmel stay or runaway?
However, it's like countless
babies crying out from the suction cups
inserted into their mothers' wombs
relating to the outer thoughts
escaping from outside my brain
that has me walking restlessly
through a world
others cannot see but analyze
through the escapades captured on paper
or outputted to a cyberspace screen,
But know, I feel deep within
For I am a weary traveler
Looking to be heard
And not always understood
Removing those chains to hear the echoes
Of my voice that whispers in the wind
Feeling the breeze of my own presence
Following slowly behind me
And know, I can be to myself a friend
As I have now let go
Listening to discover the inner me
Where at a time my resistance
has kept others remote
where I am now removing the glass
That separated my presence from the world
While I was being
Just Me
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Just For My Baby
Taking this time right now
to explain my feelings
to you and your future interest
I do want to be apart of your life
a very special addition
to your days and nights
as the courage I maintain
keeps a forever sparkle in my eyes
I want to continue believing in you
I need your help when it comes to
expressing to me how you want to feel
at the times you are with me so real
you see loving you unconditionally
is a very easy thing for me
But how about you?
I would love to be that only man for you
wishing that you can tell
by the way I keep approaching you
Very beautiful MY BABY
that at times leaves me
and my thoughts vulnerable to express
all of everything that I can offer to you
the traditional marital vows
I compose sometimes poetically
due to stored love that I have fallen into
the first day I met you
the visions of holding your hand
while we walked and talked
in route to your building
my dreams now becoming true
because of your patience
you so far have shown me
allowing me time
to speak my mind
similar to this poem
as I composed it today
Just For My Baby
Monday, August 01, 2005
So Much
Too many times
Held by you
Never enough
Too many times
Kissed by you
Hardly enough
Too many times
Loved sexually by you
Not really enough
Too many times
Called by you
Maybe enough
Too many times
Controlled by you
Enough is enough
Too many times
I tried to free myself
Only to remain stuck
Too many times
I believed in myself
Only to be down on my luck
Too many times
I thought about not needing you
Only to not know how much
Too many times
Saddened because you chose another
Only to continue to show up
Too many times
I thought of having your child
Only to with you watch her grow up
Too many times
My tears have fallen for you
Only to have them now slow up
Too many times
Your approach even to this day
Only leaves me confused with what I want
Too many times
Your name is called out in my mind
Only to have to tell myself to shut up
Too many times
My life will be on hold
Because of you and how you've ruined it
So Much
Held by you
Never enough
Too many times
Kissed by you
Hardly enough
Too many times
Loved sexually by you
Not really enough
Too many times
Called by you
Maybe enough
Too many times
Controlled by you
Enough is enough
Too many times
I tried to free myself
Only to remain stuck
Too many times
I believed in myself
Only to be down on my luck
Too many times
I thought about not needing you
Only to not know how much
Too many times
Saddened because you chose another
Only to continue to show up
Too many times
I thought of having your child
Only to with you watch her grow up
Too many times
My tears have fallen for you
Only to have them now slow up
Too many times
Your approach even to this day
Only leaves me confused with what I want
Too many times
Your name is called out in my mind
Only to have to tell myself to shut up
Too many times
My life will be on hold
Because of you and how you've ruined it
So Much
Sitting Here Being Secure
Dreaming of a moment
A moment of clarity
One of prosperity
And one of longevity
To only, find myself
By myself
Looking for chemistry
That contains energy
Sharing my entity
Because it is a remedy
To keep me breathing steadily
As I approach the world readily
Decisions - Decisions
With deciding to remember me
Where I'm left alone thinking about
How December should be
Should I beg or pray just to be seen,
As I express with my heart
Only for another to not
Know what I mean?
My life in a corner, green
As I am cheated daily
By those with low self esteem
Sometimes I wish that person were me
So I can wake up selfishly
Without a care in the world
About what others mean to me
At the same time acting devilishly
You see, I strive to counter Divinity
Beyond self stimulation
And how I bring it to me
Because righteously it means to me
More than one can offer me
After offering it to another
Not allowing it to make a softer me
Because for real I am the boss of me
Each day employing myself
To enjoy myself
The way I work, the way I flirt
The commitment to maintain my health
Why do I really need anybody else?
Why do I need another’s somebody's else?
When I cannot replace that somebody's wealth
As I am only shared a little about somebody else
Which is disturbing
When looking at my thoughts
That this other has brought
Which leaves me distraught
While thinking about the cost
An hour long deep conversation $10
Affection on occasion $380
An everyday smile Priceless
To give to another I cannot digest
To still see your previous lover I cannot forget
Where what I express
is not confidently regressed
Once again, feelings oppressed
That begins when I am left to guess
about why I am here looking a mess
While at the same time remaining free from stress
Faithfully believing that I am only here to endure
In addition, experience pain that I have left before
Testing my every limb and thoughts so pure
Even as I am myself
Sitting Here Being Secure
A moment of clarity
One of prosperity
And one of longevity
To only, find myself
By myself
Looking for chemistry
That contains energy
Sharing my entity
Because it is a remedy
To keep me breathing steadily
As I approach the world readily
Decisions - Decisions
With deciding to remember me
Where I'm left alone thinking about
How December should be
Should I beg or pray just to be seen,
As I express with my heart
Only for another to not
Know what I mean?
My life in a corner, green
As I am cheated daily
By those with low self esteem
Sometimes I wish that person were me
So I can wake up selfishly
Without a care in the world
About what others mean to me
At the same time acting devilishly
You see, I strive to counter Divinity
Beyond self stimulation
And how I bring it to me
Because righteously it means to me
More than one can offer me
After offering it to another
Not allowing it to make a softer me
Because for real I am the boss of me
Each day employing myself
To enjoy myself
The way I work, the way I flirt
The commitment to maintain my health
Why do I really need anybody else?
Why do I need another’s somebody's else?
When I cannot replace that somebody's wealth
As I am only shared a little about somebody else
Which is disturbing
When looking at my thoughts
That this other has brought
Which leaves me distraught
While thinking about the cost
An hour long deep conversation $10
Affection on occasion $380
An everyday smile Priceless
To give to another I cannot digest
To still see your previous lover I cannot forget
Where what I express
is not confidently regressed
Once again, feelings oppressed
That begins when I am left to guess
about why I am here looking a mess
While at the same time remaining free from stress
Faithfully believing that I am only here to endure
In addition, experience pain that I have left before
Testing my every limb and thoughts so pure
Even as I am myself
Sitting Here Being Secure
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