The Hell Within My Mind

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I once heard that after the rejection
I was the one being played without protection
I wasn't shit while being fed plates of hyper-tension
discovering the greater reason to honestly have to mention

I am living in a world where heroine addicts are intelligent
drug dealers are relevant
Gay people are significant
and poor people are hypocrites

Everyday I find myself spinning the wheel of life
hoping that it will land on another day of strife
so that the pain and trouble unseen in the light
will now be captured by the lost Eye of Trife

Glossy perceptions ruled by the unkind
20 20 now equals 249
divided by the square root of the
dumb, deaf and the blind

Tests are still given
less the lead No 2
which is now hidden
beneath fingertips of children

caught up in a world of virtual mass destruction
dedicating less time to verbally pass instructions
on How, What, When, How and Why
2 minutes is more than enough time

especially if used by those who are inclined
far removed from the binds
of such negatively affected minds

It's Been a Long Time - AHK MIX

This is my tribute to Rakim the best lyricist to ever do it.




It's Been A Long Time

Verse 1.


Follow directions, the streets couldn't wait to mention

Nobody's been this contagious since vinerial infections

you should RUN AND cop this - cuz the WORD on the block is

I'm still one of the hottest blowing up with this ahk shit

They said I flipped my stlye with the flow that I'm spitting

so I kept ripping to put the underground in position

with Confidence, putn your hearts above the fences

to expose you wack emcees that rhyme with no tension

cause old days are returning, old ways of burning

Less the waiting, I make mines no hesitation

Track by track, I keeps my shit in rotation

AHK, keeps it heated, burning mc's steady hating

Brooklyn's Own, well known for no contention

sick with the lessons to stablize connections

back to Crush the competition, how long has it been again

to be in the state of mind that AHKMEL is in?


"It's been a long time.."
".. AHKMEL, on the mic flowing with no assists"
"It's been a long time.."
"It's been a long time.."
".. AHKMEL"


Verse 2.


When I'm out rhyming - either, sizing or freestyling

headz see me climbing and also see me shining

the delay is over, I'm now solid like a bolder

like I told ya, I'll stone ya and make you run to jehovah

I deciphered the flim flam with the mic in my BAD hand

never a challenge, to blow up like a MAD MAN

I'm an Arsonist melting mics and scorching shit

at least one a day when I breathe I be torching shit

In hood fashion, mind of osama bin laden

Never slacking, my minds committed like a captain

Ahkdagods stability, too raw for you to get with me

You know, AHK's got that winning streak Infinity

More bars and phrases than vegas - as I schooled pagans

With my cordless mic, to control their behaviors

never lazy, I'm spitting rhymes crazy

Word up, I'm done with wack rappaz always trying to trace me


"It's been a long time.."
".. AHKMEL, on the mic flowing with no assists"
"It's been a long time.."
".. AHKMEL, on the mic flowing with no assists"
"It's been a long time.."
".. AHKMEL, on the mic flowing with no assists"
"It's been a long time.."
"It's been a long time.."


Verse 3.


When I flow on the mic, I flip styles precise, no hype

too many styles too megabyte when write

corns and frauds still trying to get close when

I step into the arena leaving the bitchniggaz frozen

Riddled men like the sphinx when they heard me rhyme

the only emcee left to embrace the hands of time

the passion of ahkmel should now be on your mind

now that I have your attention undivided line by line

So be aware, listen closely to what you hear

Like, Craig Mack when I'm kicking that flavor in your ear

Books I tear like yellow pages so be scared

every time I spit I penetrate like a spear

Since I came on the scene, always fresh, dip and clean

the first one rocking for delf no team

Still trife with mad shine while I'm on my grind

Where now you can listen to me online, it's been a long time



"It's been a long time.."
"It's been a long time.."
".. AHKMEL, on the mic flowing with no assists"
"It's been a long time.."
".. AHKMEL, on the mic flowing with no assists"
"It's been a long time.."
"It's been a long time.."

"It's been a long time.." {extended scratch}
"It's been a long time.." {extended scratch}
"It's been a long time.."

This Xhit is Gangsta

This Xhit is Gangsta

My Baby - I Love You So

This song was written with hopes to getting my ME across to those that still can't put their fingers on me. =)

Big Wheels Keep On Turnin

I wanted to see if I could experiment using a lil bit of Ike and Tina, to make this track a Classic AHKMEL Joint. After listening to it, from the beat to the samples used. I believe that I pulled it off.

Enjoy at your own risk.

AHK

Consequences and Whatdafucions

If you are way beyond your years and make-up will not save you, and all you may have left is a revealing outfit and a pair of heels that still hurt when you wear them, but because they are cute you "have at it anyway" AND continue to demolish your toes, I vote NO - ON VOTE 53.

VOTE 53

Old and Unattractive women should not be allowed inside of clubs, restaurants, places with ambiance, lounges, pubs and any and all places with alcohol. If they will be turned away at the doors of these establishments, the level of hating would decrease as well as the confusion. When a person is inebriated their vision becomes a little impaired where they can not focus on the illiteracy, hard lines, wrinkles, missing teeth, extensions, over and under applied make-up, beat up hands, undone nails, hammertoes, corns and such.

Men in this case are looked at as subjects that can be tricked, mislead and manipulated much more seriously than when they are sober. There will also be less bastard children produced and brought into the world. Where instead of having traces of Grey Goose, Alize, Courvoisier, Jack Daniels, Captain Morgan, and Hennessey in their blood streams, they would have traces of oxygen and be sufficient with the proper and appropriate nutrients necessary to live and sustain a healthy pediatric lifestyle into late childhood.

VOTE NO ON VOTE 53

1500 and no more Counting

I am seriously done with having sex because I've reached my goal.
I have also never been truly fulfilled or satisfied.
The only time I've been satisfied sexually was with a 55 year old woman from Argentina.
She embraced my soul and allowed me to connect with her intimately.

I know this will never happen again, because its not suppose to happen again.

I am afraid of involving myself physically anymore, due to the lies and continued desperate attempts by women who are still going into every single relationship half ass backwards.

My mind has been made up...so if you are reading this because you have GOOGLED ME, please move on to the next guy that will treat you like the slut you are, whore you've become, and unfit parent that is far from a role model for your own child or children.

When you learn to respect Gods Eyes, then you will be ready for a relationship with a REAL MAN as he will be ready for a relationship with a REAL WOMAN.

Some People Should Not Take Pictures

I am only stating this because in my heart I believe on children and people who work really hard on their appearance should have their pictures taking, especially with a nice camera and not a camera phone. The pictures don't ever come out nice. Also fat people, men and women, who wear tight clothing should just stop it. I mean if they are trying to create or establish an illusion they are not doing a good job. I believe they should be proud of their excess and wear clothing that compliments their shape or size. Taking pictures should be a NO NO, because the pictures will never be appealing - REALLY. And unattractive people should also know that they are unattractive. For Heavens sake, STOP THE INSANITY...Susan Powter...

Pictures should be only worth one word, when they are taken by people that lie to themselves and continuously welcome the lies of others. Like for instance if you take a picture and you don't think its attractive and share it with someone that begs to differ, you should immediately tell that person, that they don't have to lie. I know this would be a hard thing to do, but believe you me if you do find the confidence in yourself to secure your inner circle, doing this will weed out those that have had something to do with why you are doing what you are in the first place - like posing and taking pictures knowing that you shouldn't be taking pictures in the first place.

STOP IT

The Truth Really Does Set You Free - Part 1.

So I told this slut not even a cougar (because cougars are not living to catch feelings) that I wasn't interested in receiving any more of her slutty pictures and she slowly vanished from out of my life....While noticing this I would like to give my thanks to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for securing my faith in him once again. He has removed the lust from my state of mind for those that don't believe in him and his ways.

Sex is a Business

You are traveling to be with a man
that only wants your over abused body
misrepresented figure.
You have to get showered, do your hair,
put on your lingerie you've already wore
for the last guy. I find this pathetic
because it is so true and so you.
Where's the integrity or does that even exist
in women anymore. You do all of this for a man
that is not yours to call your own. WTF

You get cinderella pretty listen to your mirror lie to you,
show up to be entertained by a man that already has put an
expiration date on you. Believe the facts...You will never be the
only woman in a mans life if you are traveling to see him.

We look at you as trash and you don't even know it.
We look at you as the desperate women you claim you are not.
We will stroke your egos and tell you that you are pretty, sexy
and beautiful, just to have sex with you, have you put your mouth on
our genitalia, and treat you like the trash you are. There's no escaping
these facts because they are not fiction, especially if this is something you've
done before. Honestly men are not really worth the trip, we don't care and
will never care. Its not in our DNA, we are not built to care, this is why
we will never change. It doesn't matter about what you look like, what you have,
how much you have, or what you can do. Think about porn stars...You will never see
one male porn star only performing with one woman porn star, or vice versa.

Just thought I'd put it out there.

Not Into Kissing

Why would I want to kiss a woman
that just got finished slutting herself out to a man
or men that doesn't want to be with her.
I think that's nasty and I respect myself
better than that. I figure the harder it is to learn
the more effort I will put in to studying the actions
of a woman's ego and desperate attempts to getting a man
but not keeping a man. NEWS FLASH - slutty women don't
secure men, just will get added to the rotation.
Don't complain about knowing your truth, accept the facts
then look to change if you are not going to benefit from
the overall experience.

The more you date the more you leave yourself open to kissing
a slut. Women who date are usually dating more than one guy,
kissing one guy, missing one guy, and having sex with more than one guy.
I find it very interesting to hear women emphasize the need to date to
get to know a man, when that's not what you are doing.
To get to know someone period takes a lifetime, and with this
attained knowledge, I will never fall victim to those that continue to
be so repetitious with their lifestyles when it comes to serial dating.

And oh yeah, personally this will also keep me from just kissing random women.

Even when I was a victim, believing that I needed to date and kiss women
I took out on a date for them to continue considering me to date, I was immediately
turned off by the inexperience or lack there of. At times I would plainly just say I am
no longer interested or just float away like a cloud passing by, knowing that I am also
just another random guy found passing by. So in the end there would be know feelings lost.

No more kissing, means just that, as I would rather hold the hand of a woman, before kissing her
sperm infected mouth, and that's how far I will go with my intent to share my thoughts on this matter.

But wait there's more, less shocking revelations pertaining to kissing women, and why I am not interested. LIPSTICK....FLAVORED....GLOSS....All of these are not attractive covers to experience for me. I don't wear them and don't wish to experience the chalkiness, sliminess, or stickiness on my lips at all and will ALWAYS refuse to kiss a woman or have a woman put her lips on me while wearing these. Personally, I don't think on the average they make some women attractive just fun to look at like a clown. "Make up" period is repulsive to me when not worn appropriately. I am not into kissing women looking like a clowns..

Just Not Into Kiss Women who fit into the above categories.

I am also guessing that all women fit into the above categories.

Damn!

The Must Haves or Must Needs

They tell you that its not about money or material things
but it is.
They tell you that its not about having or needing this or that
but it is.
It's what's programmed into their minds from early childhood via societies insensitive
brainwashing.
At times I disagree to agree based on the motive behind the overall attraction,
however it took me to realize by constantly hearing the same words being used
in reference to what's not needed because I already have it myself.
I believe this is the most redundant thing a person can say that is so untrue.
Which makes me now agree to disagree with why people choose to give themselves to others
they believe have what they need.

Supporting documents that you can google, I will start with Michael Jordan who was feared as the
most sought after complete male figure alive during his LIME. He secured a relationship with his wife, had children, had financial security, had psychological problems like a human male would.
He was unfaithful to his wife, she stuck around, then she deported herself from the relationship, because he know longer had respect and a heart to give her. Have you heard about her as of late, who she's dating, who she remarried. NO, because it was never about her, because she didn't HAVE what Michael Jordan NEEDED. She disappeared and was replaced by someone who did have what Michael Jordan HAD, and what Michael Jordan NEEDED. This was just a quick point, and not so much an analogy.

For years, I've been wanting to ramble about this topic, and I now have 400 stories to blog and share with those that will come across my submissions.

Personally, I get it and will forever keep it, that's why I have been able to succeed beyond compare. I next to God will always make the rules and never just do more to acquire someone's poor excuse for and emotionally attached relationship. I technically believe that women are not here to be loved. I believe women are here to be caught, gathered, used and disposed of, after their worth has been appreciated then depreciated. Like a woman who marries and not have kids out of wedlock. I just love the word wed-lock. Even when this takes place, what is the true worth of the woman during this process? NONE really because her marriage will not last due to the pressures of the SOCIETAL AFFECT.

Rambling on....women who don't experience this are like jewelry hanging up in a window that you always see no matter how long the stores been in business. They look nice on display, but are they worth the investment or purchase. Maybe, but let me ask this who owns only one piece of jewelry.

TO BE CONTINUED

Time to Live

My story is of depth so it will be longer than you can hold your breath.
I remember everything that has ever happened to me, and I will release it through these words
in the form of text. For 9 months I overslept, stored within an unsafe place called a womb.
I remember inhaling fumes, and nicotine. Tar and afro sheen.

What Happens When Charles Becomes Quiet

She came she saw
she peeked she sneaked
she spoke she knew