A man is He that understands his mistakes, and admits to a change needed in his life, resulting in everlasting acceptance. - AHKMEL PHAROD. This Blog will serve as an Emotional Journal, it will capture my life as an entity articulately, artistically, soulfully, rhythmically and last but not least Poetically. I welcome you to relate, relax and receive me as open as you possibly can.
The Rebirth of Fashion
When fashion takes a break it sits down and takes a picture.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Brand New, Uninhibited and Sexual - Day One
Introducing myself to the latest version of the music program I use to make beats....
FL 2008
Walking minding my business
while looking business
you know the three piece
with the hat and matching cuff links
the patent leather Stacy's
the cologne from Macy's
A.ll D.ay I D.ream A.bout S.ex
in my look and walk for sport
A.D.I.D.A.S
this young lady walked by me
looking at me like she saw Jesus
I was on the celly
not really paying mind
to how this young lady felt me
until I heard the air whisper
how I was a good looking niggah
she said I as I thought she said
stopped for a moment
then turned my head
to look back and ask her
what was it she said
where at that time she walked
up on me quicker than weed to Dreads
about 5 foot 8 with a pretty shape
had me thinking for a second
about how the happy hour
I was going to could wait
I shared myself as she was
more concerned about my health
nose running and shit
no tissue and shit
but still I proceeded
to do what was needed
as she stood there looking
at me shook with amazement
after 10 mins she
gave me the number
then asked if I would slumber
I was like Damn!
this girl made me wonder
about how and why after just meeting her
I was about to be put up under...
Politely I declined with a smile
and said that I would see her
some other time
as she obliged I knew it was sublime
the way I do that thing I do
it's like a spell cast by some type of Voodoo
left her with a hug
and a kiss on the cheek
then watched her ass buckle at the knees
and knew right then and there
soon this young lady I would stimulate
relate to on that intimate level
good enough to eat
3 weeks pass by
we chit chat on the fly
one argument later
I was about to say goodbye
because of how this young lady
was trying to get all fly
telling me that I wasn't making
the necessary amount of time
to spend by her side
I was like shit
I didn't even hit it
and this young lady
is now acting like a chick
I am not even trying to get with
yelling and screaming
I thought I was dreaming
when she hung up the phone
then called back to apologize
then started fiening
initially I explored the reasons
to capture this young ladies breathing
by telling her that I was still interested
in another possible meeting
she agreed then from there
we met in about a week
looked into each others eyes
and witnessed the freak
met at DuPont Circle
sat at Ben & Jerry's
and talked about circles
yeah you know circles
I was checking her
while she was checking me
feeling on my
don't make me hurt you
she once told me that
it better not be small
I didn't at the time reply
because I'm more mature than before
chuckled then told her
that she would be alright
and then came that day
when we met and
I pulled it out in front of
Ben & Jerry's in broad day light
she peeked then stared
told me to put it away
then she said lets go
and I followed her away
to a building down the street
where she had to go
schedule an appointment for dermatology
we road up on the elevator
kissing as she was out loud wishing
that I could leave work early
so we could go fishing
I was like damn you like the bait
as she grabbed the bait
I kissed her lips
while caressing her face
then her breast then her ass
and left her displaced
until the doors opened on the elevator
I continued to stay with my eyes the chase
into the office looking like a couple
I patiently waited knowing
that we were going to leave soon
to getting into some more trouble
left the office then took the stairs
not caring if someone
would be frequenting there
I grabbed her threw her
up against the wall
then moved her to the right
before she had a chance to fall
touching not rushing
pulling as I am blushing
belt unfastened
I knew I was about to start crushing
or smashing in what ever type of fashion
Birds and Bees acting
her eyes are rolling
and moon walking like Michael Jackson
pinching on her nipples
with the piercings
she's hotter now and wetter
I knew based on what I was hearing
jeans soaked through her panties
that I thought she wasn't wearing
Oh me oh me oh my
I love being that on the fly guy
as she loved it too
enjoying her new friend that wasn't
trying to become her new boo
because I only was interested in
doing what a man does
when it comes to having a clue
about how to be
Brand New, Uninhibited and Sexual - Day One
FL 2008
Walking minding my business
while looking business
you know the three piece
with the hat and matching cuff links
the patent leather Stacy's
the cologne from Macy's
A.ll D.ay I D.ream A.bout S.ex
in my look and walk for sport
A.D.I.D.A.S
this young lady walked by me
looking at me like she saw Jesus
I was on the celly
not really paying mind
to how this young lady felt me
until I heard the air whisper
how I was a good looking niggah
she said I as I thought she said
stopped for a moment
then turned my head
to look back and ask her
what was it she said
where at that time she walked
up on me quicker than weed to Dreads
about 5 foot 8 with a pretty shape
had me thinking for a second
about how the happy hour
I was going to could wait
I shared myself as she was
more concerned about my health
nose running and shit
no tissue and shit
but still I proceeded
to do what was needed
as she stood there looking
at me shook with amazement
after 10 mins she
gave me the number
then asked if I would slumber
I was like Damn!
this girl made me wonder
about how and why after just meeting her
I was about to be put up under...
Politely I declined with a smile
and said that I would see her
some other time
as she obliged I knew it was sublime
the way I do that thing I do
it's like a spell cast by some type of Voodoo
left her with a hug
and a kiss on the cheek
then watched her ass buckle at the knees
and knew right then and there
soon this young lady I would stimulate
relate to on that intimate level
good enough to eat
3 weeks pass by
we chit chat on the fly
one argument later
I was about to say goodbye
because of how this young lady
was trying to get all fly
telling me that I wasn't making
the necessary amount of time
to spend by her side
I was like shit
I didn't even hit it
and this young lady
is now acting like a chick
I am not even trying to get with
yelling and screaming
I thought I was dreaming
when she hung up the phone
then called back to apologize
then started fiening
initially I explored the reasons
to capture this young ladies breathing
by telling her that I was still interested
in another possible meeting
she agreed then from there
we met in about a week
looked into each others eyes
and witnessed the freak
met at DuPont Circle
sat at Ben & Jerry's
and talked about circles
yeah you know circles
I was checking her
while she was checking me
feeling on my
don't make me hurt you
she once told me that
it better not be small
I didn't at the time reply
because I'm more mature than before
chuckled then told her
that she would be alright
and then came that day
when we met and
I pulled it out in front of
Ben & Jerry's in broad day light
she peeked then stared
told me to put it away
then she said lets go
and I followed her away
to a building down the street
where she had to go
schedule an appointment for dermatology
we road up on the elevator
kissing as she was out loud wishing
that I could leave work early
so we could go fishing
I was like damn you like the bait
as she grabbed the bait
I kissed her lips
while caressing her face
then her breast then her ass
and left her displaced
until the doors opened on the elevator
I continued to stay with my eyes the chase
into the office looking like a couple
I patiently waited knowing
that we were going to leave soon
to getting into some more trouble
left the office then took the stairs
not caring if someone
would be frequenting there
I grabbed her threw her
up against the wall
then moved her to the right
before she had a chance to fall
touching not rushing
pulling as I am blushing
belt unfastened
I knew I was about to start crushing
or smashing in what ever type of fashion
Birds and Bees acting
her eyes are rolling
and moon walking like Michael Jackson
pinching on her nipples
with the piercings
she's hotter now and wetter
I knew based on what I was hearing
jeans soaked through her panties
that I thought she wasn't wearing
Oh me oh me oh my
I love being that on the fly guy
as she loved it too
enjoying her new friend that wasn't
trying to become her new boo
because I only was interested in
doing what a man does
when it comes to having a clue
about how to be
Brand New, Uninhibited and Sexual - Day One
The Last Time I Checked
These Events were Recorded and Scripted to welcome
Those interested in me as a Universal Man
Day One...
We stared then gazed
She suddenly approached
My universe
The recognition was not there
Still I spoke
Words of a different man
Was not for her to understand
So instead of staying
She slowly ran
I’m safe once again
Week Two...
Same place same time
Vision a little clear
Still not interested
So I didn’t even threaten
My eyes to stare
Soft Hi and Bye exchange
Turn around disappear
Happy I am once again
Day Fifteen...
DeJaVu’ celebrity status
Brand new shining tonight
With plenty of clues
Peripheral the same physical structure
I vowed not to touch her
So I touched her friend
Friend fell in the most unorganized position
Look at me pimping
Knocking two chickens with one bone
Who do I think I am
The future
Is me
I at the same time
Simultaneously making 2 women
Smile for me unconditionally
At the same time
No sex just passionate kisses
For the 2 of them
No sex
So I said good night
Day Eighteen...
Outlined finesse
The mood is more than set
Sat patiently as she exercised
The frustrations from off of her chest
So I sat and listened
Understood she became vulnerable
But to whose avail
She was celibate
Oh, My! What have I gotten myself into?
I’m sexy, I look good
Thank you for the information
Back to my apartment
She’s become intoxicated
With my touch
Drunk with greed
Out for what to achieve
Spent the night
She’s not celibate anymore
The Last Time I Checked - "An Oldie But Goodie" 4/8/07
Before the मोक्किन्ग्बिर्द गेट'स Here
Uh Oh
I remember the first time
I heard your voice
it was like the sound
of an angel the sweetest noise
comforting the joy of my interest
to hear more from such a princess
you made me an ear-witness
I thought you were acting sexy
until I heard you next to me
I fell in the best kind of love
the kind of love
that leaves bedrooms messy
the kind of love that exceeds
stays close and never leaves
like a memory
I mean I watched you grow
I noticed your glow
so amazingly powerful - gravitational
pulling my every emotion
my every reason for drinking that potion
Alive and well because of the notion
when it came to your motion
the movement of your songs
conquering my wrongs
leaving me with an everlasting commitment
to stay focused positive and strong
so precious you are
your everything you are
your every minute of who you are
your reason to allow me to love you
for who you are
Lost without the idea
of you not staying here
scared to love another
the way I love you dear
like the falling of my tears
when I think about another way
of making your gloomy sky clear
whether with words
or my touch sincere
which you more than deserve like the Diamond
Before the Mockingbird Gets Here
Friday, March 28, 2008
Like I Was Supposed To Do
I remember that Friday night
When I was leaving the club Love
The night when I was on that
Doing it right shit
I remember seeing this girl
With the chinky eyes
She was with her friends
Who were quite surprised
By the rules I live by
Confidence
Strength
Boldness
Uniqueness
Expressiveness
Assertiveness
Uninhibited
Can you believe
I told her and her girls
Where I would put my mouth
that night
How I would eat her friend’s pussy
and how I would eat out her ass
I mean where was the class
As I type I laugh
Because I am like
later for that
I was tipsy to the point
of not caring about the aftermath
I stayed with it
after doing the arithmetic
Told the girl with the chinky eyes
about how I would lick it
Then she paused
and it was like
Right then and there I was able
To smell her drawers
She asked if we could exchange digits
I obliged and proceeded to
carry on with it
like a man is suppose to do
I hit her up the next day
and not only licked her ass
I fucked the memory into
Her days and nights to come
Like I Was Supposed To Do.....
From The Get Go
My words are simple in the form of stimulation
- easy to understand - easy to faction
pit me against the rest -
would be less than satisfaction
I aim to please because it once dawned on me
how pleasing is something I do automatically normally
whether you know me or not
I still know how to hit that spot
without touching you - or rushing you
cause I am never pressed when it comes to
removing the dust from you
so I will play safe and ease my way in
before even thinking about crushing you
I am not a player - I am more like a lover
who has been the 1:00 AM in the morning woman savior
the elevator believer
back of the jeep or car misbehaver
disease free knowingly never gave her
or them or they what ever whenever
my approach stays clever - in any weather
ass cheeks on that ice trail blazer
or side of the road sexual path maker
the splickity spunk spanker
the freedom to be that morning fresh cup of Sanka
down the throat chamber
slowly smooth protein shake painstaker
can't help if I got it like that
had it like the first brim before the hat
the sun before visor
it's like when I hear no it gets me hyper
makes me liver - than any Baltimore Wire
the surface is here and now
cause I keeps on faces of those who know
endless smiles
after traveling those miles
a frequent flyer mileage holder
pulling the Hertz rental car over
not waiting until later Casanova
who shows up with a performance that would
even make Heather Hunter or Ron Jeremy pull over
So la de Da de Da
is what I hear when you say what you say
the way you want to be innocently stalked and chased
never that Sis - my arm doesn't twist
and my stamina stays at 100 percent
you aint making me work for shit
especially when it comes to any sexual experience
I'm gold the melted kind
the diamond still not found in the mine
the I know what you are doing for real to mankind
and still I will prevail - while letting my mind sail
above those that attempt to curtail
my style - my male - my hetero
my skills I will never let go
when it comes to - getting what I didn't really want
From The Get Go
This Shit I Post on the Net
Got-Damn! I see
I am going to have
give myself props
on my own projects,
from my music to my beats
my lyrics to the logic,
behind whats on
the front of my mind
when I take a minute
to make up some fly shit
then drop it,
I mean it's like sometimes
I feel I am the only one
who hears shit,
the way the sequence
of the drums
and the snares shift,
the timing the rhyming
that Brooklyn Realness
maybe thats what it is,
I am in a different arena
existing with frauds
and cornballs who make
pop culture their targets,
along with the followers
those fat ugly ass groupies
shit now I don't feel so bad,
anymore once I've divided
the bars in half,
the counts like 1. 2. 3. 4.,
the Every Good Boy Deserves Fudge
then some more,
of that good and plenty
call me Choo Choo Charlie,
and I will leave you higher
and Bobbin like Nester Marley,
just for the hell of it
the streets that I really rep,
other than
This Shit I Post on the Net
Just Like This
I pray constantly
asking for direction
and guidance to understand
what I am doing
I don't want to think
that I am not suppose to
express these feelings
that are forever brewing
Inside of my body is
a heart that pauses
just for the acceptance
of a woman's human
Her sanity of desire
from Mr. Right-Away
Mr. Immediately
Mr. Drop-Everything for you
And
not look back on the
reasons why things didn't work out
because it will
only be the love I'm reviewing
Over and over and over again
keeping the precious memories
of the smiles and the hugs
that really kept me moving
Into her direction
but how can this happen
when there is no response
to what it is I am doing
Like catching a falling star
just to present it
to who she is
in the form of a New Man
A soldier trained
by the word
blessed by the first
observed by the third
Confident enough to caress
the second that may not
receive the type of attention
that will never be worth
much more than it is what it is
before and after discussing
the emotional bliss
caught by expressions
Just Like This
Thursday, March 27, 2008
OH MY GOD!
I would do more than touch you there
I would blush you there
better than the first time she crushed you there
you see I would take the precautions
to keep you wanted like the hottest item at any auction
you already know the writing
but you are not familiar with the 1
who knows how to apply the biting
soft enough to keep your tomorrow loose
caressing with my mind the tip of your prepuce
and that's just the half
before I applied the math
the deep breaths
the scuba diving tactics
making you want to do cartwheels and back-flips
submitting your secret thoughts out loud
screaming AHKMEL PHAROD
instead of OH MY GOD!
An Unforeseen Devotion
To Summer who I now call Winter..
I don't want this kind of love from you
I don't want to be a part of some kind of group
I want to be loved by the core of your soul
I want to be thought of
the same way our ancestors
once thought about gold
Precious
like the way I hold every thought of your smile
even when I shed a tear
knowing that I am not your style
Damn!
Its like another black man behind bars
a waste of life incarcerated no longer shinned on by stars
This is the way I feel sometimes when I reminisce
about how I loved you so much from a far
I think back to when we met
how we met
the way we glanced
the way we danced
the way we chatted
the way we talked
the way we chilled
the way we thrilled
for the first time I felt unafraid
for the first time I felt brave
with every intention to protect you from any danger
that may have been grave
From VA to DC I've always held apart of your smile
so dear to me, as it was so heavenly
including the way I would looked into your eyes
which made me
feel like I was back in the 60's and 70's
you know the time when falling in love
while courting a women was the way to be sincerely
Summer with all of my unforeseen heart and foreseen emotions
I must release this pain from off of my chest to you as
An Unforeseen Devotion
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Again and Again and Again
With my words and mind there is no time like the present to express myself to you...
On to bigger and better things...How about ..We`re hooking up at this hotel, you come in, I'm waiting, we start kissin and rubbin then fall to the bed still kissin passionately with me spreading your legs - starting to grind on you while I am kissin on your neck with you grippin my back cause you want me so bad - then I lift up your shirt and start caressing and kissing your breast, You take my shirt off cause you want to feel my body on yours we are still grinding and kissing passionately cause I know I would have to make you cum first where you are almost there, I can feel your woman pulsating underneath your panties she wants me up in there so bad. Then finally it happens and you cum, now we are ready for the real deal I take down your panties and work the middle like I know I can, 1st taking my finger and runnin it thru your sweet strawberry vanilla smoothie then takin 2 fingers, spreading your lips so I can see your pearl, I see it still throbbin and just sittin there waitin, where with just the slightest touch of my tongue on it sends you quivering but you dont want me to stop, so I start lickin ever so gently in little circles making you feel really good, you start rubbin my head pushin it down in there. I am just stayin in it cause its making you feel so damn good, but I'm not greedy baby, I've tasted enough for now, where it is now your turn, you lay me back and kiss on my lips around my neck down my chest letting your tits rub on me all the way down while you start to grip my man, he is up anxiously waiting to feel your mouth, you will lick him slowly up 1 side then down the other, taking him into your mouth sucking and sucking, in and out, no teeth, where I am impressed, making me feel really good, where this whole time you are on your knees on my side I got my hand up in your stuff, rubbin it and keepin it right cause you know I am bout to take it Again and Again and Again..
Just something to keep you interested
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Con Amor
I told this woman
that I loved her
and immediately
she told me
that I didn't
my heart
my soul
my mind
my spirit
all heard me confess this
from Gods created mouth
from Gods created lips
from Gods created lungs
from Gods created breath
Sadness looms
and conquers my hopes
in one day
some day
Falling in love
with a woman that knows love
knows God
knows man
knows the confessions
of a soul
less the perversion
less the Ford Excursion
less the fear
less the scheme
less the conditional
less the promised dreams
I believe now
that this woman
is not the woman
that I should express love to
she is the woman
I need to pray for
before I close the book
that kept open the front door
Con Amor
Friday, March 21, 2008
I Am Not Interested
Its times like this that
doesn't come as a shock
or surprise
after looking deeply into
your pretty eyes
I wanted to share with you
my thoughts as always
the way my mind races
like children down hallways
as easy as it is
for me to project
my thoughts rhymically
I must say that at this
time I am finding it
the most difficult yet
Even now as you start to
wonder why
a tear rolls agressively
down the right side of my eye
Emotionally
I am into you
as I am
Devotionally
however the truth remains
as still as my voice vocally
and this is all due to
you not being my girlfriend
I mean I know we like
one another or is it just
the way lovers pretend
until the end
you know after you have
found that special someone
to make you smile
that special someone
that will also make you frown
for me if you haven't heard
I am as free as a bird
therefore if you don't know
what you want from me
then you can have back your curb
because in that type of relationship
I Am Not Interested
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Time to Waste
I call you when I am interested
I call you when I am happy
I call you to share love
My thoughts
My words
My joy
My interest
My wisdom
My knowledge
My strive
My sustenance
My quality
My artistic
My romantic
My freak
My self-subsistence
My strength
My pleasure
My experience
My ups
My health
My successes
My defeats
My victories
My spiritual
My internal
My passion
I call you to allow
You to get to know this
I call you because
I've made it a commitment
My new commandment
of substance through
Consistence
All of these offerings
I share because
They are what make up
The reason
for considering you
in the first place
Because I desire for you
to end up in first place
as do I
However, this will never happen
because you only consider me
as an option to call only
when you have
Time to Waste
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Only My Best
Here I go once again
Taking trips on blinding highways
Of infatuation and confusion,
I’m getting a headache
with mood swings
And the different illusions,
And Why?
All because I keep a full tank
To travel with,
And when it comes to my heart
I just can’t stop,
Moving autobahn mentality
Never left behind,
Always and forever
Because it seems like,
It is the only thing
That matters to me,
As I am never ever thinking
About compatibility,
My focus is on the approaches
Of who desires
Not to be noticed,
Beyond and above the stress
While I am only interested,
In providing
Only My Best
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Saturday, March 08, 2008
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