Stay Tuned - 12/31/05

I Love You - 05/12/04

Not only will I
share my heart
as well as my love attached
praying about the chronicles of you and I
foreseen a perfect match
I held your hand before
you had to ask
I intellectually with you created
a new path responsibly a new task
within the structure of our believe system
that should never crash
as our flare colorfully should never clash
as long as we both understand
the importance of spiritual math
as I equals 1 where we are
which equals 2 never letting
a day go by without expressing
to each other the 3 words
that equals

I Love You

Every Year - 05/10/04 (w)

Sometimes
I sit quiet thinking
about you
how to approach
how to provide comfort
I've relaxed beyond
my own confusion
of why it feels like
I keep losing
one after the next
the hiatus remarkable
at times too complex'd
for my mind to make time
to take time to understand time
clock of counterclockwise wise
in reverse I made sure
I allowed my mental to travel
back just to correct the tomorrow
without fear of being here
for you

Every Year

Prosperity - 05/10/04

As real as it felt
just to appear before her
more focused now
2 seconds from the contact
of our eyes complimenting our smile
slowly easing the pain
before the tears of God's happiness
fell upon us like rain
the signs symbolic of what
it means to maintain
truth within the righteous
thoughts of the civilized brain
afraid nor intimidated
to express my purpose
explained in my name
where she understands
the comfort of purity
succeeding as she now rested
her head upon me
no doubts in my mind
to provide the security
needed to experience
between her and I

Prosperity

Freestyling 53

Traffic congestion
no key to this type of gridlock
that will leave you sweating in your socks
like laborers breaking rocks
mind to much work applied
braincells boiling hot like fries
no cure so why ask why
instead of attemping to try
efforts lacking thats why you cry
during the day and not the night
my words meant to initiate
the little person up out of your life
at the same time
you've already heard me recite
line by line skills to define

Freestyling 52

Tip tap crushing toes
that I stomp on not step on purpose
never scared confidence making you nervous
my world deserves this
because it never heard this
I poisoned the reservior dogs
chasing the Band of Brothers out of service
crazy like Japs that just crash on purpose
Kamikaze my sons are born and rising murderous
sinister check the smile less the happiness versus
the anger of I - mind, body, and soul
that couldn't be contained by churches

Unless They are Hers - 05/07/04

I pushed up
on that woman
who smiled celestially
I gained her affectionately
my points her validation - perplexing me
I never thought with the cleverness
about togetherness
until I discovered love
then immediately rendered it
received first my penmanship
as I remembered it
verbally stimulating
the positive never the negative
subtracted the line
but kept the stanza's repetitive
leaving hearts numb
with my poetry I use like a sedative
no spell no voodoo
never artificial like the flavor of Yohoo
mahogany words silky milky verbs
turning on and off nerves
by choice

Unless They are Hers

The Journey the Expedition - 08/19/04 (w)

The walk
The journey
The expedition
The quiet
The peace
The birds
The bees
I listen
The format of spirituality
equates to my mouth
my ears
my vision
directing my sight
in God's presented direction
not to sound too redundant as now
my illiteracy is now in remission
less my Cancer
where that part of me shall stay
July 3rd 1974
examples engraved on the back of closed doors
my faith
my existence
wise and in the right position
the things I see and have seen before
enables my spirit to grow even more
so I continue to give thanks
to him for she
who became me from the womb
of her
my reason
my right
my strength
my spine
my heart
my mother
30 the biological length
still the walk

The Journey the Expedition

I've Been There - 05/06/04

Together we sat
no clouds no sun
eyes interlocked
attraction the stare
less the glare
unconditionally prepared
and aware
of our feelings so sincere

Conversing about prosperity - I'm in there
Conversing about faith - I'm in there
Conversing about loyalty - I'm in there
Conversing about tranquility - I'm in there
Conversing about aspiration - I'm in there
Conversing about structure - I'm in there
Conversing about relations - I'm in there
Conversing about love and the pain it brings

I've Been There

Before the Doctrine (w)

I love the fact
that I can see
before I experience
how you will treat me
before entering
the lab of chemistry
my class my time my study
pages Alpha to Omega
including a glossary infinity
my book my lesson my history
old school traditional symmetry
implementing trust beyond faith
never should any one lie to me
not good I've been blessed
with a truthful understanding mentality
I already know before
what's been told to me - vocally
heard the word as I became the body
my eyes my confidence my policy

Before the Doctrine

Thoughts In My Head - 05/04/05

The birth of a King, a God, a Prophet
my thoughts are my routines
that I day to day modify
up until now
I guess my mistakes
haven't been corrected equating to change
but why must I have to exist in society
as a King a God a Prophet
a worldly director of movies
independent and commercial
life extending me a hand
to work through my own psychological
I battle still fight and struggle
with demons and evil heathens
I never used that word before
distress who do I call to get even
maybe I should pretend to stop breathing
playing dead instead
just to team up with
the self conscious

Thoughts in My Head

Freestyling 51

What the deal
what the deal
walked up to the 225th story
just to tell 225 stories
which may bore you
but will never bore me
the sign of my times
lies within my glory
I'm a black man quoting this
real - fake niggaz
got's nothing for me
as I enter the cess chamber
filled with Buddah
I inhale with the intentions
to gain strength
like a cougar or a puma
running the streets
giving tumors
to the sucka MC
speading false rumors
about how they are
better than I am
a nigga with more class
than the Shaft
hitting more notes
than the Wynans
Shinning at the same
time blinding
all these bitch ass niggaz
for looking at me
and looking at me for what
muthaphucking PooPuts

Hotter than a Furnace

First born paying respect
to the second star
third and forth shadow
my back now his
true to the wisdom understanding
and knowledge since little kids
serious the way of the generation
surname Kearse with more
aliases than criminals doing
back to back sentences
juvenile destructive
adolescence productive
Llord Trife introducing Naismith
leaving marks cuz our verbal ink
is seriously permanent
hatters we are less concerned with
too many bars we already burned with
hot human torch Johnny Storm
3rd degree fantastic taking turns with
the heat we bring to the street
leaving it when we are out

Hotter than a Furnace

Freestyling 50

Lyrically claustrophobic
mentally one you can't flow with
too complex but not too complicated
now you know it
sewer water in my system holding it
until the time is right controlling it
never seen grass greener
on the other side
because I was always mowing it
pissing and shutting on front lawns
like a dog showing it
then rock throwing it
with aim more accurate
then a strike bowled
by a bowler bowling it

Freestyling 49

From the first discovery
to the first recovery
open with my mind lovely
I moved from the back
so the front could cover me
uphill I've fought
through the weeds and shrubbery
even had to make my hand grip rubbery
gun shot gun shot bullets
trying to smoother me
plus I'm allergic to the powder under me
blasting back sneezing
nasal passage wheezing
sick of this shit
meat easing blood leaking
born in it
to die in it
but for now
I'll keep breathing

Freestyling 48

For real
you need to stop bitch
before I yank out your heart
then stop it
no beat no pump just garbage
self esteem the target
trach can lids my name marked with
automatic semi with the shell
hitting the floor charted
the group for my sponsors
quota met commision made
finishing what I started
uper with my market
30% taxing niggaz
I've once parted

I'm Live With

I got your world hostage
the now present the future
no more defenses blood leakage
dirty the suture
no more respect
permanently seated you booster
below standards low self esteem
beginner no chance no opportunity
Lyrically I shoot ya
right between your eye hooters
decapitated your tutors tutor
then fried the neck off your rooster
I coast with the space provided
one planet two worlds collided
chaos confusion with the mass upsided
scale unbalanced just a little reminder
but I'll be quiet
before there's panic
resulting in a riot
the roof is on fire
in my mouth rewired
each verse Fahrenheit
3000 degrees

I'm Live With

Freestyling 47

I wrapped my hand
my palm
around the microphone
spit
one verse
annihilation
Atom Bomb
Hiroshima Vietnam
a street prisoner
the storm before the calm
like Godzilla in Brooklyn
fighting King Kong
from night to morn
similar to Juvee'
listen this ain't no movie
I'll die on purpose
and haunt you like Ghost to Scooby
pass me the tooley
chromed platinum bullets
light a nigga fast
before a nigga tries
to move me
excuse me you talking to me
cause your girl is now
walking to me
better check that shit
before around your body
the cops will be
chalking the street

Women's Lib - 07/17/04

She told me
wait a minute
no more will I start off
with what she told me
as she is now back
where she belongs
alone but not lonely
just without me
where I am happy
to no longer
have to pick up my phone
I know the real deal
the real issue
plus I'm all out of tissue
to wipe away
the selfish tears of individuals
that only talk about
how they care
and how they openly share
then complain and speak negative
about their insecure fears
over and over again
year after year
no longer am I to be all ears
cause its not why I live to hear
how I should've and could've did
according to gossip and

Women's Lib

Freestyling 46

My mind is scrabbled
7 moons Parker Brothers
Triple word scorer
rags to bitches
less then poorer
kids from the ghetto
see me before Ya
and appreciated this
lyric lawn mower
Ice melting snow blower
slick rhyme on time flowa

I'm the Boss - 04/27/04

I'm not usually one to talk
but up to the front my thoughts
out loud must be caught
be unlike the way I walk
swift single file stealth and suave
and still I'm stalked
must be because I'm handsome
and a little southern fried
from Brooklyn New York
Righteous enough to understand
the reasons to not eat pork
as my intellect expands
farther than any collegiate
finishing their forth
so the dumb deaf and blind
can understand that individuals
do really exist up north
always ready to be challenged
not into coming up short
too familiar with the riches
owned by the Israelites
who were a Black Tribe
but not really lost
education separation wise now
wisdom I use consistently as my force
by choice I confuse
just to entertain using my brain
supreme without Diana Ross
because like Tony Danza

I'm the Boss

Soothing Me - 07/01/04

After traveling
over the river
and through the woods
I jumped at the opportunity
to analyze continuity
my thoughts inspired
by international and domestic communities
I try and share this passion fluently
exercising reality congruently
taking things too far over analyzing
is part of what keeps moving me
I even sleep easy after fighting conditionally
with no stress nonetheless
where my self love continues

Soothing Me

The Last Day of School

Little Johnny ran home today
book bag hanging off
of one arm, shoelaces
on the right foot untied
he kicked
a home run after school
for his mother
during a recreational game
of kick ball
scoring the final run
Little Johnny was proud
of his job well done
almost didn't even get to play
he studied first
before all after school games
same path home he chose
same routine,
same joyous walk he displayed
day after day
but today unlike any other day
Little Johnny
was running home because
Little Johnny was afraid
no more administration
home needing to stay in order
for the approval of
Little Johnny's Uncles daughter
she his Auntie played Mother
until his Daddy
arrived from the hospital
stressed, tired and hoping
the house Isn't a mess,
Little Johnny ran home
because Little Johnny
wasn't a mess
everything he did
with perfection
as he did everything to impress
only thing that was different
about today that made him afraid
was that his mother wasn't returning
home to hear about
how good little Johnny played
to provide Little Johnny
with a big kiss a hug
and a little praise
for the good job he has had
on this particular day
Little Johnny ran home
thinking he would
see his mother one more time
before the Lord came
to awake her soul
just to take her soul
before her body could
be finally laid in the grave
he just knew he would
see his mother again
to tell her that
she was wonderful
instead Little Johnny
had to hear
that his mother past away
at three o'clock in the afternoon on

The Last Day of School

My Mind - 1/22/02

Though as next to my feelings
is no one else but you
outside the world of memories
keeping you inside my heart
feelings of us
surviving the world
controls the smile
as it presents itself to you
the path of guidance
welcomes you
to belong forever
attached to my serenity
as we live now to stay
strong together
the involvement
our partnership guaranteed
interested sky-high amongst
the wealthiest
who struggled to succeed
as those that were them
became us
compelling isn't it
as you think of it
I write about the
comfortable way
I wish you to think
no stress, no worries
no headaches
no hateful transmissions
I understand the mind
as I look to help you understand

My Mind

To See It – 01/13/05

The love is near
I can feel it
As I am here
Only for you to reveal it
Maybe you are saving it one day
for my heart to conceal it…
where until that day
I will believe in you
Similar to the way you
Show me love
For me

To See It

Gods Heavenly Seam – 03/01/05

So clever so perpendicular to my skillful ways
I more than arrange these words
to involve themselves within your day today

Never tired or out of breath when it comes to
how instrumentally gay I feel these days

So vibrant your eyes and new vision to my eye contact
Where at times I have to allow my love
and shadow to take 5 steps back
Just to allow my soul, my mind and spirit to laugh

So happy so proud so confident in our mission
Canada’s respectful courting outlook is
about to be shook or shaken out of position

Because All of His Knowledge will Make Every citizen Listen…get it
So simple so lovely so fresh just like my last dream
The beauty of the first memory
of our first engagement so clear so clean

The icing on the cake now, the King of the hill,
the shoulder now muscular enough for your head to lean
Similar to our love that shines through

Gods Heavenly Seam – 03/01/05

My Own Poetic Tales - 12/13/05

You see my dreams have
bright lights and soft smells

red carpet attitudes
plenty of posh grails

the end of the attention
the physical symbol of Braille

the make sure you understand
before I let you fail

the epitome of expression
etiquette's new black male

extreme with the achievements
like a voyager setting sail

where the longitude of my
latitude will continue to prevail

hot without the equator
mentally rich enough to post bail

after trying to be controlled
by selfish souls carrying pails

onward marching
I remain consistent walking on trails

leading me not into temptation
delivering me from the sale

my soul the sanctity
the one and only AHKMEL

bleeding my thoughts outside of
my own mental jail

stabilizing the caliber of my detail
to not be too fragile for the retail

the passion too massive
for any scale or female

unforgettable like my dreams
already achieved within

My Own Poetic Tales

An Audio Instrumental of a Track Titled: THINKING

An Audio Track Titled: Ask For More - 04/04/05

An Audio Instrumental Titled: He Lives Again

Because You Care

Half of me now wishes, that I was still there,
to love, caress, hold you and play in your hair,

with that soft scent of rasberry in the air,
keeping my nose wide open all year,

remember the long walks in the dark with no fear,
and how I spoke about the birds, the bees, and the bears,

never a day passed by, without expressing to you how I cared,
from an across the mile smile shown, loud enough for you to hear,

soft spoken words, I used as a token of how sincere,
I wanted to be received, like Santa Claus to reindeer,

you see AHKMEL, with his mic tonight has been cleared,
to serenade you once again, with his care and flare,

GO AHKMEL GO AHKMEL GO! ...............I still listen to the cheers,
concentrating on your voice to secure me of any fear,

Louder and Louder, I desire for you to appear,
because I feed off of you, for the same energy I share,

can this be all so simple, like a meal already prepared,
one bite two bites, I am feeling less than scared,

gaining weight in my confidence, I am strengthen not by your glare,
just by the focus you're showing me, that keeps me right here,

Because You Care

I Desire to Have

It's not everyday,
I get to relax,
my eyes,
before the small of your back,
as I am here to love you as my last,
from the shape of your body a perfect catch,
similar to my thoughts as a perfect match,
multiplying and applying the math,
to your beauty that has me ready to attach,
this passion and devotion as a patch,
removing the pain from your past,
with my desire to attack
you like a lickable piece of candy,

I Desire to Have

Still I Sit, Knowing That I Love You

You say you love me,
You say you need me,
Now you say you do not believe me.

You say you are interested
In addition, find me attractive,
Then tell me something I have not heard yet,
Without the conditional attachments,

I do not need a home, to call my own,
I need a place, where I can be alone
With someone attached to my microphone.

Someone that supports, not deports my pride,
Someone that is not looking to eject from the ride,
Because it takes two, to laugh and two to cry,
The same way, it takes the same two, to make everything all right.

I am still looking, for that Heaven, my Halifax,
I am still waiting, for all of my love, to be given back,
Just so, I can believe, that I have met my perfect match,

Seems like, to this day, that would be impossible,
When the past haunts, the psychological,
Threatening the sociological, within the chronological,

365 days, after the I love you exchanged,
Allows, a 5 minute instance of disbelief to maim
The balance of our security, wiping it all away,

Still I sit, proud to know you,

Still I sit, traveling just to hold you,

Still I Sit, Knowing That I Love You

An Audio Track of a Poem Titled: Drifting

Leave

What about the time I shedded that one
You didn't even notice,
I stopped breathing right next to you
You were oblivious,
My face red as you thought I blushed
You smiled - I rushed,
Right out the door
Oxygen CPR God needed me more,
So on my knees - bad and drained, I prayed
Not for Billie Holidays niece
Just for peace and a splash of harmony,
Freed before the misery
Became my shadow, my best friend,
I don't want to play outside
I just want to understand why I cry,
So you I had to detach before I can
Before I plan to be stable with my stand,
As a man you should have respected
My YKK, My walking next to you everyday,
Instead you wanted to listen
To others that were wishing,
That you would make it and leave
To keep them company within their weave,
Wickedly expressing anger
Wanted the best for you,
Secretly talking about
being the security next to you,
the all you need selfish with greed
to the Lord I plead,
give me the courage to lead
so that I can

Leave

CALM WATERS

With you,
today I want to be romantic,
Smile because of it,
produces a new laughter
within, starting love new,
with you is the reason,
to walk and take it serious
as in the bed
I long to bring you breakfast,
slowly feeding your every smile
that you allow me to witness,
informing you that this is
what I live for,
endless opportunities
to keep you happy,
satisfied and secure,
there is a Venetian gondola
with I as your gondolier
awaiting your entry
settling down with the waves
evermore, like these words
I continue to
conventionally pour
poetically into your soul
flooding the essence
of your solitary
as we float together above these

CALM WATERS

ENJOYING THIS - Part 7 of 10

Hello,
once again we have
a new situation,
a new reason
for the awakening
of my erectation
hot loving is here waiting,
dying to capture you
for the duration,
your legs sexy upon my cheeks
as you place them,
you know
where I am going with this,
caramel dreams
I had of this moment
so please
I ask you do not resist,
my fashion
is made up of candle sticks
edible wax
melting upon your wrists
for me to lick
a trail to your lips
excited for the movements
of your hips,
for slow is the way,
leading up to your trembling,
your last orgasm
I had you remembering,
would you mind
if I stay needing you forever,
would you mind
if I take you on that erotic vacation,
I sit here
and think about the fascination
of my body upon yours shaking,
the grabbing of silk sheets,
the tearing of pillow cases,
the arching of your back
as I keep the sweat
on your body racing,
this is the image,
these thoughts are because
of the beauty of your soul
followed by that sexy body
and mind you have me constantly chasing,
by now can't you tell,
did you forget already,
you know our last session we had,
where you showed me
that your body was calling
on top of being ready,
traveling for you across these states
when you call
letting me know
that it's time
to see you in your Teddy
something I will never miss
as I look for you to continue

ENJOYING THIS - Part 7 of 10

AHKMEL PHAROD 02/13/2001 7:30PM

An Instrumental Track Titled: Carmen

Stand True

Within my senses, strong enough to wipe the invisible tear of God
I sit and meditate, on what to do before the Rod
Sparing me, preparing me to see through the Hard
Using the staff and my legs supported by my calf’s guard

Let me walk the path he’s made
Readily patient and never afraid
To stay focused even through the rain
Before the surfacing of any pain

I really just want to calmly remain
As a pillow, before my head is laid
Believing in everyday for which God has made
Rejoicing my celebration through love’s serenade

Sharing and loving to
Openly and devoted to the thought of you
Embracing the sincerity beyond the logical
Witnessing the soothing voice communicado

I hear like Christmas carols
I see like romantic images with a lot of candles
Burning for the delight of this newness not too hot to handle
A gentleman, I present to you for it is my turn to with you

Stand True

Your Sexual Parking Lot

The showing of myself
before you unlike God
As I am the same man
that desires to make you call on God
While I am caressing you
with my palms softly and not hard
Clothes removed after a sensual kiss
to lower your guard
The warmth embraces your chills
securing your lust is Charles
Attention paid to your
breathing and sensual spots
A kiss on the lips again
keeping your thoughts now hot
Sweat dripping vertical reaching
stomach loosens it’s knots
As I touch you there and there again
giving you all that I got
Drip dripping drips intimately
your fantasies finally
connect the dots
From your arms to your legs
I shall not stop
until you beg for me to stop
and apply pressure to

Your Sexual Parking Lot

What Stimulated Me Today

THE ELOHEIM

Gnosis reaches us through the written scriptures, through enlightened masters, and directly through the Inner Light, but the source of all these is the Eloheim. This is a Hebrew term which is translated "God" in most Bibles, but it is actually a plural form (plural in Hebrew is indicated by im) which is sometimes more properly translated "Gods." However, this term too may be misleading because of our preconceptions of what it means, so gnostics often leave "Eloheim" untranslated.

False concepts of deity result from the belief, which most people have, that "god" or "the gods" are something totally unrelated to mankind. The gnostic, however, conceives of Deity as Exalted Mortal. "On the Origin of the World," an ancient gnostic text, speaks of the Deity (pl.) as "an enlightened, immortal humanity." Irenaeus explained that gnostics taught that "the Primal Father of the Whole, the Primal Beginning, and the Primal Incomprehensible, is called Anthropos [Man]...and that this is the great and abstruse mystery, namely, that the power which is above all others and contains all others in its embrace is called Anthropos [Man]. (Irenaeus, Libros Quinque Adversus Haereses 1.11.1) The Deity revealed itself to Enoch in these words, "I am one of the Eloheim. Man of Holiness is my name. Man of Counsel is my name." (History of Ezra 3:14) Gnostics believe that Jesus called himself the Son of Man because he is the Son of the Man of Holiness.

This means that the Eloheim were once mortals as we are, but through the application of the principles hidden in gnosis, they became enlightened and immortal. If we follow the same process they did, we can become like them; we can join the Eloheim in the celestial realm. Jesus said to his disciples,

I have come to open the Way of Life to all mankind. I will teach you the passageway through which the elect will pass into the presence of the Eloheim, that same passage through which each of the Eloheim has passed before you. (Teachings of the Master 1:2)

THE DIVINE MOTHER

Since both men and women may follow gnosis and become members of the Eloheim, the Deity is revealed to us as both Male and Female, Father and Mother. Jesus said, " You are the sons of the Eloheim. Should the son not be like his Father? You are the daughters of the Eloheim. Should the daughter not be like her Mother?" (Sayings of Jesus 2:10) Of those who unite with the Eloheim he said, " These will sit on the seat of power of the Eloheim, using instruments of power, and they will be the Fathers and Mothers of worlds through all generations." (Testimony of Mary 2:7) He also taught his disciples to pray in this manner "Hear us, our Father and Mother who are on the heavenly plane." (Teachings of the Master 1:5)

The word Eloheim, itself, is a predominantly feminine form.

...female imagery of the divinity persists throughout large portions of the Bible, perhaps starting with the plural form of the name of the divinity in Genesis one, ELOHIM, which is probably derived from the feminine form of the name for divinity, ELOAH.... (Leonard Swidler, WOMEN PRIESTS, p. 169)

It is their failure to acknowledge the Motherhood of Deity which has led many to regard "him" as a fierce, tyrannical, judgmental, vengeful tyrant who is looking for a chance to trip them up and throw them into hell. Only when we understand the Motherhood, as well as the Fatherhood of the Eloheim, can we begin to perceive the meaning of the scriptural assertion that God is Love.

Taking Me Up Tonight

Leaving my first worries behind
As I glide on your every contact
Your responses immediately breathe
hopes into my days now beyond that
Of my every day less the love attached
Knowing that in my heart your love will come back
You are appreciated as I have gravitated
To the attraction in which you show
That has now been initiated
and reflected by my glow
Rina, I know the world is secure with our growth
As I am here happy with both
decisions we've have made
to keep each other close
Like the way the moon and the stars
Never drift far apart in the skies
Similar to how when I look into your eyes
My teeth forms a connection
with my mind to produce a smile
So heavenly as worldly as my deja vu
My aim is to forever remain apart of you
Whether there or here I will be secure
due to my thoughts about friendship being pure
Confessing to you my soul which feels so right
Asking if you wouldn't mind in your dreams

Taking Me Up Tonight