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From the very first time
up until now
My sensuality speaks
for the hetero in my sexual
and the way you lust
to swallow me
Don’t act tough
just spread em
Let me help you
with your bra so I can
because I know I can
The concentration
The fantasizing
everything happening
before it's happening
The premeditation
I'm good for that
I'm spoiled to the way
I with my soft lips
caress your neck
tightening your grasp
throwing me that ass
when I haven't even
felt it yet
I'm about to tame that freak
in you
just waiting for me
to take my tongue
on a committed journey
The faster you kiss
the less I can remember
so slow down
it's still December
The heat is on
let me undress you first
so I can smell
what I'm about to taste
On guard then rise
and turn around
follow me back
into the shower
I know you remember
the last episode
the steam the chocolate cream
the caramel screams
my hand needs a place
to call home
so welcome my soft knock
upon your G-spot
Woman you drive me
You
Got damn
I see why I was giving
the nickname Rock
I'm aroused by the way
you move
so keep moving
Don’t talk just listen
I want to hear your flavorful
I want to watch
the water glisten
remember how I took
my time with you
how wet you became
just by my approach alone
The rhythmic motion
to that number 7 EMBRYA
Maxwell Song
you remember the foreplay leading to doorway
My bed becoming your bed
My head became your head
My positioning
you were not ready for
as your hand, mouth and lips
began to self explore
the softness of my body
The coat of fur
The smell of amore
The scent of me wanting
more of you
as I play tag
with your spots
that I will connect like dots
to the most sensitive
Excited forever with you
as I keep you

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AHKMEL PHAROD 12/29/2000 2:00PM

So Critical

Now about this you
I watched the way you walk
I heard the way you talk
I've seen the way you dressed
The way you wear your hair
I've read books
all about the soulful you
within your spiritual
The strong in your bonding
with women
yet you have
as you say a lot
of female friends
I scratch my head and say
What’s the problem?
There’s no solution
to the parameters around
The which and the who
attracts you
The lusting for
but who's lusting you
To much time following
not enough time
finding out the you in you
like what's on your mind
right at this particular time
I bet you have no clue
so politically correct
So tofu
So much discontent
Going on right inside of you
too selfish to share
Your atmosphere
Your latitude
Your burnt textured hair
Non-ambitious
Conversation lacks interest
The opposite of many is none
Home should be where
your heart is
Instead you now make
your heart where your phone is
and you expect someone to
respect you when you
lack respect for you
energy you waist
away people you chase
because you are

So Critical

This Heart I'm Giving

So many challenges
So many faces
So many women
I need just one
Just one right now
to immobilize my thoughts
My pride
I surrender right now
to just one of you
Read my poetry
as you do
Understand that I am a male
One who desires the affection
from that of a female
Warm-blooded
Lets take away this English
for just one minute
Look at what I'm doing
just to be noticed
in this world
Spreading my heart
Like I'm invulnerable
Like I'm indestructible
Always ready to make myself
the opposite of untouchable
Your eye contact
Your lips covering a smile
I believe will match
that of my own
We are the same
We have the same number
of bones
bones that can break
like hearts that are not strong
I became apart of your life
because I understood
it was where I belonged
Your mental stamina
evolving around
my universal diameter
The percentile
upon my 5th
With you it is important
that I provide
you continuously
with my words as a gift
Far better than humor
For now I'm ready
to be that man
to represent you as a woman
Everyday and every year
I'm looking to share my life
My wisdom with you
So we can start building
A better life for us
and our children
Securing a foundation
Forever and ever to you with

This Heart I'm Giving

Everytime I Think of You

New York, Brooklyn, Bed Stuy
My stoop
The conversations
of Black Power
Black Sistahood
Utica Avenue, Eastern Parkway
Home of the beautiful
City of the united
Where were you?
Many times I walked alone
From Sutter Ave
and Rutland Rd.
I walked home
I didn't see you
Quietly I survived for you
Righteously
I believed in myself
Just to continue
to breathe for you
I've been blessed
The victims, the children
as I was one
One of those tragedies
A young black man
A virus
A time bomb
An oppressed bastard
with nothing
The fears
The tears
of not knowing
If I will make it to 18years
such a strong burden
from birth
placed upon me
growing up in my own city
I slept for many days
counting bullets over my head
thinking about Love
What is love?
Where is love?
Who has love?
Why is love?
All day I looked
Questioned still confused
enough to move
New area
Same thoughts
of premeditated expressions
with you
I just want to get along
with you
I just want to remain strong
Natural exchange of souls
Universally I pick you
I don't want to feel
left out anymore
Woman, take me as your own
Practice with me
Research with me
Find a better place in life
with me
Woman, today with thoughts
of you,
You’ve inspired me
I'm 26 now and I'm fortunate
to belong to your femininity
Your call
Your feelings
Your thoughts of me
I dream
a gentle confident dream

Everytime I Think of You

When I Stand Still

Yesterday behind the you
Behind the I
Forever and ever is justified
My America your Africa
Many tears shed
Many hearts cried
1.6 billion babies
born to die
As in us
Making what we have beautiful
just to stay alive
No longer impossible
as long as it's you and I,
Dwelling inside
Your soul
My dedication my life
Universally I shall
make you my wife
My strength by my side
My hand
Your pride
Your affection
My time
Endless orbiting of my mind
when it comes to your smile
Thank you
for the righteousness
The way you remind me
about my Spirit Divine
not to exist in envy
Hatred or jealousy
expressing it's not good
to walk alone
because we are here together
to build
No worries shall
penetrate my field
You my love
Your welcoming arms
I use as my shield
keeping me permanently safe
at all times

When I Stand Still

Don't Forget Me

Please understand my Love
Please understand
that I'm destined
to reach you
My tender way
I care
Look into the sky
See me alive
blow a kiss to my smile
even if you are shy
just don't walk on by
I'm trying to get
your attention
which leaves me to mention
the amount of space
that my heart takes up
within my body
every time I think of you
The numbing feeling I feel
as I start to miss you
your face
My touch
Just maybe one time
My lips
Your cheeks
How soft
The way you accept me
In memory
My life to you
is here for eternity
So Please

Don't Forget Me

All I Ever Wanted

It`s was the first time
The only time
I laid my eyes on you
I didn`t even know your name
I was kept safe for you
by you for 9 months
I was one with you
You protected me
I understood
then you released me
I started to cry
because I was no longer
apart of you
you allowed for me
to become detached
when we were for 9 months
a perfect match
I don`t feel perfect anymore
while you carried me
I couldn`t be judged
because I couldn`t be seen I couldn`t be
heard now I`m judged by the way I look
the way I read - the way I speak
the way I eat - the way I see
the way I do things
with this life you released
I was secure with the way you held me
I was confident by the way you fed me
then you released me, How could you?
Premeditated thoughts of how to treat me
You watched me grow so you could beat me
My life is not even my own
to bring back home
therefore I strive to succeed only to
continuously find myself alone,
remember you after you released me
failed to hold me as my life is empty
existing without comfort when all my life
from you that was

All I Ever Wanted

A Priceless Contribution

Why, Why, Why, Why, Why
Must I have to continue?
Why, why, does my life go on?
Everyday is torture on my soul
as each day I awake
there is a pain
that is indescribable
no definition
I look to my heart now
more than ever before
and it is unreliable
my state of mind
is in its final stages
of acceptance
My stomach is tight
My chest is swollen
My eyes burn form the contact
of the confused
and abandoned
and still I go on living
Why, Why, Why.

Should I take myself
away from myself
having no pity
or should I continue on,
accepting this pain
that I feel
when it comes to someone
wanting me but not
needing me
so much pain
so many thoughts obtained
Unrighteous
as I'm preached to spiritually
to be treated conditionally
I'm confused
as I shouldn't be
I don't feel prayer is necessary
My pain is caused by prayer
so I wish prayer
didn't exist for me
How do I express this?
How do I spread this message
that is so important to me
and my existence,
I live because of it
and it is it that brings me pain.
My life is pain
My love is sad
For sadness is my love,
I cry through words
confusing those
that excuse themselves
from understanding my pain
with sincerity
instead of
coming to a blind conclusion
Let my smile
be only an illusion
Let my eyes
be your resolution
as you may look to
approach me with a solution
providing me
with your patience as

A Priceless Contribution

Have No Fear

Time in and Time out
I find myself being tested
each day for some reason
I feel my love growing
as I am not near you
for you my love grows
unconditional...wait
I just want to share with you
that I understand
what that word means
truly to be blessed
by such a lovely person
as in yourself
when you think of me
enough to want to call
I am blessed
to be thought of by you
I cherish each day
I am able to write
a poem for you
Teardrops continue to fall
I want you to
give me your all
I mean, everything.
I want your beliefs
I want your understanding
I want your wisdom
I want your warmth
I want your compassion
I want your mind
I want your soul
I want and need
all of these things
just to show you the same
I have your Love
now show me that
I should
as I give you my Love

Have No Fear

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My hands upon your body
Your hand wrapped around my energy
Yeah you remember me
I’m that man that sat you on my kitchen counter
used my tongue as a whisk
took your heavenly saturations
then proceeded to motion my lips
between your hips
upon your what belongs to you and not me,
though I must admit that it is tasty
Duncan Hines chocolate
let me one more time swallow it
you know the
not what's in between
a Twinkie filling,
let me enjoy
before you have my children
I want to make sure it's safe
with no infections
Ready and willing to make that power move
arching your back with the utmost aggression
I'm tired of being gentle
let me bang you,
let me take your wrist and ankles
and from my ceiling hang you then fang you
can't you see I don't mind
becoming inside of you tangled
like a slinky
I want to be your wonderful toy
for you to enjoy
so stop holding that pillow
between your legs call on me
so I can pop you open like a keg
and drink to I became a lush for you,
I already had a crush on you,
my PHA-ROD wants to stay
stuck way up inside of you
like butter to mash potatoes
damn you make me want to
take you to my basement
where I would sadomasticake you
Leather whips and body suits
with the cheeks out
with your rainbow exposed
suspended without forgiveness
8 inches of my 603rd muscle
got you on your tippy toes
buckles fastened tight
just in case you make me explode
crème Della crème open your mouth wider
so like a doctor I can find a
better place to store my seeds
giving them a place to chill and relax
while you lay flat
on your stomach let them attach
a string from your tonsils
so that they can bungee jump from it
...and like R. Kelly
I will find someday one to persist...
I wish, I wish, I wish....
but for now before I go to sleep
I will make sure you know that
still to this day I'm

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